This is my haven..

i've moved..

2010-02-10T19:28:00.000+08:00

.. to http://lindaaala.wordpress.com/

farewell

2008-07-31T16:37:00.003+08:00

i have decided to temporarily stop blogging officially.

well not for any serious reasons.. but cos i am lazy and busy.. and when i have the time, i alr lost the interest to blog abt happenings in my life alr (eg graduation at the main ceremony, crazy outings, and what nots).

anyway i'll be starting work on coming monday and i think i wun have the time to blog too. so i'll be taking a break here. and i promise the next time i start blogging again, i will really keep my entries consistently coming in.

so i'll see you all again. when? i dunno.. at least before end of this yr.. :) til then!

MIA

2008-07-04T15:54:00.004+08:00

seriously i almost forgot that i have a blog. haha haven been blogging for 2 months! never even visited my blog once after the last entry..

well nothing much going on in my life now.. yea kinda sian. BUT i'm good! thanks.. only regret is that i never go grad trip cos no moolah.. unless you count a batam trip as grad trip.. sigh how boring is my life?? hahah nah.. alrite la its not exactly boring just no new happenings i guess..

all i do now is dance dance and slack.. erm wats new? lol. so now i am now busy preparing for blast concert and doing dance shows at times.. oh yes and study for my tests and attending classes. for many who dunno.. yes i am gonna be a financial planner at Great Eastern. shocking? i mean why an insurance agent? afterall i have graduated from NUS, with a Bachelor degree with merit.. so after so many years of study.. and now a job which an O level holder can do?

yes many pple have raise their doubts and objections over this decision of mine. but yea, i am willing to give it a try becos i have seen a few successful frens in this line and there is really some chances in doin well in this line. i mean never try i will never noe. try when i am still young. well if i really fail miserably, den i'll find other jobs. anyway , wat i like about this job is oso its flexible hours. well you are your own boss you see. i wanted to go into banking and prob media lines nitially but seriously i dun really like desk-bound jobs. so before really going there, lemme try this out first.

and my FRIENDS... pls dun shun me the next time you see me, no worries i will not bug you to buy policies from me. but yea, if you need one or considering buying, do look for me, i will provide the best advice for you. you gotta have trust in our frenship! haahhahaha.

alright that's all folks. i wish i had blogged more about the happenings in my life. but seriously no time. yes i could not take time off my slacking moments. HAHA.

til den!

and so i hear..

2008-05-06T22:43:00.002+08:00

tick tock tic tock tickkkkk tokkkkkkkkk

counting down 68 hours to the smell of freedom..

hey that's almost 3 days!!

basically you can see from this entry that i am really really bored and totally slacking despite the tons of readings to do and disgusting cheatsheet to write. RAH! i cant take it! why do i choose exams to end so late? Boo!

10 things that i wanna do right away..

2008-05-05T21:36:00.003+08:00

1. i wanna dancedancedancedancedancedancedancedanceDANCE!!!
2. i need a short getaway real soon. (batam here i come...)
3. i wanna play MJ.
4. i wanna have a haircut.
5. i wanna go to a beach and immerse myself under the sunny sky.. suntan, vball watever!
6. i wanna go shoppppppppinggggggggg! heels, clothes, dresses, bags all i want!
7. i wanna playyyy...
8. i wanna catch up with all my girlfriends..
9. i wanna throw away all my textbooks/notes.. but the damned exams are still 3-4 days away!
10. i want my holidays right NOW!

oh gosh.. the waiting is unbearable.. and i am having mixed emotions.. cos my days in hall are numbered! :( boohoo~

cant wait cant wait! but i can't help but wait.

random post

2008-04-25T20:11:00.002+08:00

read yiwen's blog and thot mite as well give this a try. cos i was bored? here goes..

You Are 40% Left Brained, 60% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.

Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.

If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.

Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.

Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.

If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.

Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

they got talent.

2008-04-17T16:30:00.007+08:00

as much as i am utterly guilty for not doing ANY work at all for the past two days after My game design project's over, i am still going to blog this..

ive came across these few videos of some really talented singers.. singers whom are not really singers yet cos they might not have been signed by any companies to come up with music albums. but i can tell you, they are much better than a LOT of singers out there. my gosh!

i have to introduce this girl (read: girl) to all of you and she is Clarice Pempengco. She is only 15 this year. Amazing amazing vocals. there you go.. enjoy her powerful vocals.. *jaws wide open*

such confidence and vocals at the age of 15 my
gosh. she started singing at the age of 4 and started joining competition at th age of 7! and she already has such vocals at the age of 12 when she joined this competition in Philippines's singing show "Little Big Star".

here's another female singer whom i think she is very talented. her vocals might not be very powerful but i admire her alot because she not only can sing well, she composes very good songs too. She's still competing in the Taiwan's singing competition "超級星光大道". She is 徐佳瑩. Not sure how old is she, but definitely very young too. Do check out her other vids as she showcase her composing talent.

seriously so inspired by them.. i mean not exactly to be like 佳瑩 composing songs.. but rather.. wanna improve on own singing skills haha for my own listening pleasure! lol. no laa.. i have always aspired to be a singer when i was young.. no kidding! but too bad i was not born with the talent. :( wow but imagine if you are born with a fantastic vocal, your voice will definitely be known and seriously you dun really have to worry about your future if you become famous.

no worries i am not dreaming or what. i am just saying wouldn't it be nice *echoes wouldn't it be nice song* if one is born with a particular talent that is very rare. haha.. and yes if i were to have such talent, i wun have to worry what's gonna be my future job! sigh.. headache headache.. i just keep digressing.. haven even send out a single resume. HOW?

i am such a slacker.

you

2008-03-27T20:13:00.005+08:00

this post is specially dedicated to my special someone..

it's amazing how love works. they always say absence makes the heart fonder right? hmm maybe it's true but in my opinion, i think it is more of the opposite cos i would love to spend everyday with you, sharing every moment with you.. cos i find myself more and more attached to you as days go by.. i dunno why everytime you bully me, irritate me, attitude me but i just cant seem to be really mad at you. it's Like i've lost the ability to be angry when the person is you. haha.. but well, i oso wun such situations to happen too la.. becos if it really happen, it meant i am really mad at you and something bad it must be. but i really cant imagine days which i will not be able to see you after i graduate! :( but yea we will try.. we will try..

it's amazing how our paths crossed too. from strangers during orientation camp until we met during the Perfect Match game to acquaintances den from dancemates in Temasek Dance to dance couple for Dance production 06, den from friends to good friends especially during dance in year 2, and now to what we are now. :) i guess we have liked each other a little at different times and everything is just off timing plus situations not allowing us to do anything too. but yea it's all fated isnt it? haha it seems that it has already been decided right from the start we agreed to be the lead dancers for Tiente.

okay i have this small confession to make. when i first saw you, i thot u look really hilarious.. HAHA dun ask me why.. i guess it's ur face. i remembered i was pretty shocked and surprised that you were in the pageant. oops. dann bad! LOL. after we collaborated in year 1, den i thot you were quite charismatic! haha but yea nothing back then, since i was attached and you were.. hmm.. liking many other gals.. ahahhahaahaha okay la not many gals.. what i meant is you have other gals in your mind.. den the second time collaborating with you is for DP 07, and well.. co-choreographing with you is quite fun i would say! 'ive got this icebox where my heart used to be...' kinda sad that we din exactly get to perform together in this year's DU, since we can say that things started to surface during DU period.. haha.. yea and i had always think you r a nice person except for your scandals! lol.. okay i meant it has always been great knowing you. and really glad we got to know each other much better now. right dear?

i guess our true matchmaker had been dance.. it's like if you haven been psychoed by shuyi to join dance, you might not be able to realise this very passion for it. and if we had nv agreed to be the leads in year 1, i guess maybe we will not be couple now? i meant maybe the lead is someone else and you could have been with the person now? haha.. it's a nice start and i guess it's a small milestone to what had contributed to the start of this relationship. i am glad we both share the common love for dance.. since it is the one that brought us together , and the one that brought us closer to each other.. it is always nice to have someone sharing the same interest with you.. and i always feel so happy to be able to share the same stage with you. :)

thanks for being my nerd partner (Tiente) and my pillar of support during and off dance. thanks for being the young child at times and just being crazy to keep me sane. thanks for being the pimpofthenation! haha okays that is redundant i know... but yea.. thanks for everything for i know i can always depend on you all the way til we get old and we can look back this journey in temasek hall and many years to come together! :)

i heart you! happy 7th month darling!

it's a bitch when..

2008-03-25T02:47:00.004+08:00

you sprained your ankle and it really hurts like mad when u walk.. and thus have to limp and hop around. you became the hatred of some cos you have to board the bus at a slow rate cos you cant really walk fast and pple have to wait for you..

what's worse, you cant dance for quite sometime before your ankle really recover..

and this is especially SIAN when you missed the performance cos of the sprained ankle AND will miss a paid taiwan dance workshop for 5 days!

but what is most most sian about having sprained your ankle is.. that when bathing becomes a CHORE.

see pictures below. and you will understand..

(1) my leg with beautiful bandage that looks like fruits with the fruit netting
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(2) now with a plastic cos my leg cant touch water so gotta "wrap" my leg..

(3) see.. here's a lovely green stool.

(4) now step onto the stool and this will be my bathing position in the cubicle!
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conclusion: dun i just look very very pitiful? :(

*p.s: very uncomfortable to bathe lidat and taxing for my right leg you know.. that's why i say bathing is such an ass these days...RAH!

dance uncensored 08

2008-03-21T01:45:00.001+08:00

this is gonna be my third and last year doing dance uncensored concert. my last concert in university life, before i graduate. but well maybe its just not fated. bad timing i would say. of all, sprain my ankle at the very last minute, the last item run in the last full dress rehearsal before the shows.. how unlucky! :(

2 weeks of practising and late nites cos of this and now? i'm sitting on my chair with my leg raised high on the table typing this entry. haha sounds pathetic rite? but i am okay no worries just kinda sad that i could not finish this last dance. and most imptly, cause trouble to others especially to dearest and hui who had to reblock and of cos my fellow dancemates. so sorry for this accident. and well, shing yeen (dunno if u will read this or not), dun feel bad. i meant it's an accident and no one want this to happen, no one expected that. so dun be too affected by this. and i dun blame you at all. no one's at blame actually. just do your best and i hope you can do what i already cant on stage come tomorrow.. as the lights and music are up, and you shall dance your best. :)

it would be quite interesting for me in fact... to watch my fellow dancers and especially my boy dancing, without me, on a stage tat is oh-so-familiar to me.. and it'll be my first time watching you dance, with me your spectator, and you my performer. it's Like we have always been dancing together and there i am.. gonna be one of the audiences watching all of you shine. definitely gonna SCREAM for temasek hall. you all must do TH dance proud!

thanks for the care and help rendered esp xinhui, stacy, jac, amos, liao, desmond, sy, yayi, my a2 sweets and the concerned msgs from clarapay, rachel, shuyu, hui, austen, grace and all for just ensuring/asking if i am okay.. thanks alot. last but not least, thanks dear for piggyback-ing me when i knoe i am really quite heavy (not the pt), and you are already quite shag alr whether it is mentally or physically. loves loves!

i hope my pig trotter's ankle will recover soon. i think i'll definitely scream the loudest over at the sinseh's place tmr. erps. nites all! and JIAYOU to all DU dancers! we can do it!! :)

new haircut

2008-03-09T23:57:00.005+08:00

yay! i finally got myself a new haircut and coloured my hair as well. i have been waiting for this chance for 3 months! and the last time i cut my hair is like 5 months ago la! super uber long. i am so happy i went for one today.

anyway, Olivia from Supercuts @ Compass Point is very good! thanks yiwen for the recommendations. oh ya was there in the morning for some dance performance at the newly opened Anchorvale CC. anyways, Olivia gives good advice and i am pretty satisfied with the haircut and colour she gave me. it may be simple to others but it's really not easy to have a good haircut for me. Since bangs is now the IN fashion, i also had my bangs done and highlighted some parts of my hair. i am surprised this time my bangs doesnt look so sparse now, maybe it's the harstylist's work.. so i left the salon feeling pretty contented! haha. din managed to take a photo of how it look just now.. wasted.. cos everytime the hairstylist will help to blow dry and straighten haircut. in the end my hair will not turn out as nice after i wash them.. lol.

but somehow i have this feeling that i'll probably wake up w my bangs messy/flimsy or my hair will just look horrible. erps.

evocation..

2008-03-07T23:55:00.005+08:00

Tonite was first nite of evocation and i think it was great! i felt great after hamzah's dance and i think the whole show rawks too. hope it'll be better tmr! two more shows to go! yes and photos up soon........

anyway my groupmate from NM3216 damn lame la. cos my nick was l i n d a a in my kittybox. (one of the songs in my evo item) and he very boliao drew this for me. hahahaahahhaa.. but quite funny la! thnks Kayvern! lol. there you go!

(click to enlarge f you wan)

friends..

2008-03-02T19:57:00.004+08:00

.. are so precious that they are like stars that shine brightly in the clear sky at nite..

if you find good ones, they will still shine brightly even during dark cloudy nites..

of cos some usually disappears during such nites, and you'll only find some which are hanging there, sparkling and shining brightly, maybe not so bright, but you knoe they are there..

i realise it is not easy. not easy to find true, close frens.. well, it is always to make new frens and have fun with them, enjoying one another's company. but frens who will always be there for you in times of sorrows? not an easy task. True frens are not those whom you think are fun to hang out with or those when you are happiest with them around. rather, they should be around with you in both happy and sad moments.

i always thought i have many best frens and that if we are close, we should be considered best frens. but i guess i am wrong. and i finally know how to differentiate one from being good fren and best fren.

no wonder pple always say it is easy to find good frens but difficult to find best, close frens. i am happy to have a few already.

it is not easy to maintain a frenship. it takes time and effort to do so. i always feel sorry for neglecting my frens due to committments like school and dance and whatnots. this dp made me realised i really neglect some, but it's really not much of a choice on my part. it has been a very straining period for me too.. studies and dance (a lot of them) are not helping. i definitely did not change, but i am sure some others did. sadly. but i am confident i will get it back. soon. i believe they are waiting for me too. :) i believe true frens dun really need to see each other everyday and can still be best of frens.

but still.... dun take pple for granted! pple are nice becos they r nice.. so dun think it is okay all the time. and maybe sometimes we should think that situations are like this cos of own fault, and not push the blame to others. reflections.. reflections...

alrite i should stop being so emo..!

gotta go for evocation dance practices. argh. sometimes i really dread going. but i must not give up halfway. if i do, i will never learn.

dance production photos and entry up soon. :)

my busy life + CNY + Vday

2008-02-16T17:36:00.004+08:00

oh my so long never blog le.. anyway been very very busy (as usual) with dance ensemble, TH DP, IHG and school work.. really going crazy with so much things pilling up.. my webcasts, readings, dance/choreo stuff... i nearly broke down last nite while staring at my tutorial, with not even the slightest idea abt the damn module (nv go lect, nv watch webcasts, nv even buy the textbook).

but well, ive survived thru.. but seriously i am still contemplating quitting DE.. quitting evocation.. partly cos i am really stressful for Maud's item cos it's very technical and i am not that flexible.. and partly cos i am really very tired.. and of cos very very worried abt my studies. even though its my last semester alr, and i can SU two modules, i am still very stress cos i totally dunno what that two modules are abt. initially thot can slack a bit more since i can SU, but when facing the reality, it's not really so.. i still gotta study okay. erps.

aiya.. 3 weeks more la.. persevere for 3 more weeks and DP and evo will be over. DU is okay la, so not much to worry abt. but then, after all these, meant it's all studies and i will be graduating. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! what am i gg to do after grad?? NO IDEA.

roar! dun wanna think abt unhappy things now.. maybe i shud change the mood abit. talk abt CNY and Vday den..

well went to relatives place on first day.. not much of fun just for the ang paos lor.. haha! cos usually all the relatives will gather at this particular Ah Gor's place. den second day, it's others visiting my place.. can you imagine i gotta do my project assignment on second day of CNY lor.. it was a good thing that afte rthat i met up with my frens in the evening and we gambled at one of their house. played Ban Luck and i lost quite a bit! lucky we switch to Texas Poker after that which i recoup my losses and won quite a bit! haha.. it was really luck plus taking risks man.. third day of CNY, went over to another relatives' place den Kevin came over my place to visit my parents for the first time..hmm i would think it's quite a pleasant visit and i am quite amazed by the amount of Chinese Kevin had speak in a short span of 1 hour! haha! ;) den went over to his place to visit his parents as well as celebrate his mum's bdae. i stayed over that night and on the 4th day of CNY, it was 2 rounds of MJ with his parents and it was quite fun! haha.. my luck was seriously quite good that day! won abt 10 bucks from Kevin even thou the rate is like 10 cents 20 cents. hehe.. did not take many photos so here's the miserable few. haa..

can see all are taken on the same days.. haha

darling can be quite cute at times! :) (pls pardon my super uber big round face.)

den it's Vday! well, i was really quite effort and went Ikea and Clementi to buy materials to make something for him to memorate this special day. den did my artpiece a few hours the night before vday! i am quite pleased with my masterpiece actually! you can see i am still in my vball jerseys which i have wore for IHG as well as dance tt nite. so smelly and uncomfortable! but i told myself i have to finish it by tt nite so i can gave him once it strikes midnite. :)

tadaa! very proud of my masterpiece. the rose took me damn long la and the paint kept dropping!

can you see my super tired face and my damn messy hair? erps.

on Vday itself, we went to Suntec and Raffles City to walk around looking for my wallet as well as shopping! i bought myself an Adidas jacket. very prettay!! yay! we went Sushi Tei for dinner and ice-cream at Ben & Jerry's. it as definitely a well-deserving dinner and dessert! cant believe we eat a lot! hehe. i had a wonderful day! *beaming*

ooh.. i love strawberry cheesecake, and chunky monkey and chocolate fudge! :)

in the end, Kevin got me the wallet which i loved it! and for his present i sponsored partial amount for his STORM tennis racket. haha til now he still say he very LUGI. kept on saying LG LG LG. well it's true... Life's good.... to me! hahahahahahahaha...

on another note.. dance productions in 12 days time! so excited! are you coming?? i hope you are. cos i think it would be quite a good show. hehe. so see you all on the 28th and 29th @ BTC auditorium! here's the mega poster/banner..

with our danceheads! Yayi and Kuan Lye.

and with some of the dancers! :) thanks ah the photographer is yours truly.

alrite time to change into spiderwoman mode. gonna webcast!

##XOXO##

:)

2008-01-27T02:57:00.000+08:00

Happy 5th month darling! :) :)

and today is the finals of Funkamania XIII. so excited. so nervous too. no expectation = no disappointment. Let's do our best and enjoy purselves on the dancefloor! JIAYOU MATRIARCX!!

and.. happy 22nd birthday yiwen baby!! :)

yay!

2008-01-21T15:21:00.000+08:00

WE'VE GOT IN FINALS!!! yippppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! :)

now we've gotta work even harder for finals la.. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! MATRIARCX rocks.

despite us being one of the bottom few groups, we shall show the rest our gal power come this sunday! wish us luck kaes?

alrite, it will be held at Youth Park this sunday. not sure of timings but i guess should be evening. hope u all can go support us! all the rest are very strong teams too!

ciaoz~

HUAT AH!

2008-01-18T23:19:00.001+08:00

haha just got my hair with red highlights! damn super ah lian la. but quite nice leh i like! gd thing it's fake one so the colour shud be able to stay for a long long time! hehehe.. gonna keep it for cny... LOL.

anyway, i am seriously very excited for funkamania! this sunday! whoever reads this in time and is free, pls please PLEASE come down and support me and my dance mates! MATRIARCX ROCKS! :) it's gonna be a great event with 31 teams pitting against one another while only 10 will get into finals. i really hope we will get in and not disappoint ourselves as well as Caleb. Weve really put in a lot of effort in this so i'll be real sad if we dun get in.. (touch wood!) alrite, for now, i just have to tell myself to put in my best effort on sunday! wish me lucks! :)

sidenote: i hope Kevin's mum get well soon! :)

nothing much...

2008-01-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

.. i just feel like visiting my blog and type some nonsense.. haha

no la cos a few of you complain that i do not blog anymore so just thot it'll be good to come back too.. anyway i'm realy excited abt this sunday. it's like 4 days away and it's really crucial. WE ALL WANT THIS BADLY. i think. i really hope we wil get in finals. well, we will rite, gals? hope my stamina does not fail on me, cant afford to make any mistakes!

lately, i'm seriously busy with dance that i feel i am gg to fall sick any moment! but i jolly well know that i cant especially these two months cos there are just too many impt stuff going on. i am exhausted every single day, to the point that i can fall asleep instantly once i hit the bed. Lucky funka will end in two weeks time. after which will be Th dance and well, evocation.. gonna be tough again! and IHG vball is in feb too! (despite me not in main team, still gotta train rite?) But i'm missing and will be missing quite a lot of trainings too.. :( roar!

and i am sick of choreographing alr man.. dun like some of my choreo.. seriously i like the formation more than the choreography la. sucks. i dun even feel like dancing my own item. sigh. i feel that i can dance better in other's items rather than my own. weird rite? but it's true. it's nice to watch other pple do ur dance and look good. dunno why this time i tried dancing with the rest but i forgot almost half of the steps. argh so frustrating, i am so used to watching the rest dancing... yes i love and i hate to choreo. but i know this time i gotta do it well. i have to and i want to. but cos of these reason, all the more i feel like quitting at times. cos i feel i cant do a perfect job. all the more i want it well, all the more i am demoralised. i'm really not cut out to choreograph la. prefer to learn dance from others. sorry that i sound so discouraging and depressing.

aiya but all i've all this upon myself la.. who ask me join so many things. last year last chance. i'll really MISS all these things once i graduate. this is so sad.. sobs* since it's my last semester alr, i really wanna work hard and do well! never really work hard for a semester and obtain decent grades before.. this is my last chance!!

okay til this point, i am actually getting bored with myself... about what i've typed so far.. aiyo super naggy.. my blog is getting so uninteresting! time to add in more pics... "ya ya ya always say wanna add pics den also never!" yes i heard some of you saying alr.. sure sure.. i'll try my best kaes?

aights, i realised i have written a whole lot of shit.. always lidat, rambling on and on even thou i really had nothing much in mind to type initially. hahas. kk i go take a nap le.. got dance again later.. sians.. no la i am not really that sian of dance, cos dance makes mi forget unhappy worries and stuff.. yea most imptly i dance to enjoy so..

i LOVE dancing! yeah!

Last post of the year

2007-12-31T02:34:00.000+08:00

omg.. time flies so fast!!! seriously.. it's like the last day of year 2007 today. *okay now i am slowly thinking back the past year....*

hmm to tell u the truth i din think it's a good year. i'll tell u why later. well, i have to admit there are many good moments but there are some really bad ones too. so weighing the goods and bads, i wud say it's a.. hmmm... balance la. eh den again perhaps a little on the bad side. many many to reflect upon, ponder on, only to realise in the end that that's life. if there isn't bad things, one will never realise the goodness of happy times and will never learn to appreciate. i realise a lot of things.. about people, about myself and especially others.. but it's good that i've survived all tough times! as there's a saying, times will heal all wounds. Time proves everything too. well i am just glad that at this very moment, i am feeling content. but content doesnt necessarily meant that i am happy. maybe i am now, but i dun have to be always happy to feel content. erps, i dunno whether you knoe what i mean. but yea. i am feeling content now. Less is more, you see. Expect less and you'll get more. :)

oh yea, things which makes me think it's not a good year. (in no particular order, i just typed whatever comes to my mind.) here goes..
1) my results for past two sems sucks. okay maybe they are not that bad, but it wasn't good too.
2) some bad happenings in my family in which one actually causes some strain within particular members, but it's better now dun worry.
3) i feel sad and disappointed about my past relationship. nuff said.
4) i realise true friends are hard to find, and they just have to fail me when i thot i've found them.
5) i constantly feel that i am poor. (yes, as usual)
6) i am gg to graduate, and i dun have any idea what i can really work as after i grad in Jun 2008. (alrites this point do not exactly fit here but i cant figure where it shud be alr!)
7) my sister's got diagnose with some liver health problem and it really hurts. lucky the condition has improved and turned for the better.
8) i cried ALOT this year.

some regrets in year 2007.
1) i din really have a fanciful or great 21st party. (keyword: party, see below too)
2) i did not save enuff, and too much a spendthrift.
3) i did not work harder for my CA.
4) i wud have felt better if i had handled my love life better.
5) i did not control my eating habits well.
6) not going to studiowu and felt that my dancing could have improve more.

alrites and to make myself feel better, prob i shud list down why this year is good to me at times. haa.
1) i attended my sister's wedding
2) i found you. :) <3>
3) i did celebrated my 21st with my family, hallies, bimbos and BBC and it was quite fun. (despite me being a little sad that i din had a 21st party.)
4) my CNY had been good.
5) i got myself quite a few gadgets and it proves that my money were well invested!
6) i realised the importance of cherishing what i have. (people and things)
7) i worked in the hols and earned moolahs for myself!
8) xmas was great!
9) i joined dance ensemble and i'm glad i did not quit after the dreadful camp!
10) i managed to stay with my temadance gals in a2..
11) i feel that i am closer to my siblings now. :)
12) Joining funkamania with my gals in blast! and its good that we can compete together again! and this could highly be one of the last dance competitions.. sadly.. i hope i can still join more dance competitions next time thou!

ehh.. maybe still got a few more la.. but now kinda late le so cant think!! yups yups. gotta wake up early tmr.. zzz what a start to year 2008. funka practices almost everyday and TH dance production and IHG trgs. how abt i just love to be busy. i am serious! i like to be occupied with stuff but at the same time not suffocating on me la. i think some of you mite understand what i mean. haha..

aights. shall end here la. i should go get some beauty sleep alr. last but not least...

HAPPY 2008 and hope all of you will enjoy your last day of 2007 and the coming new year!!

loves loves loves to my beloved ones! you knoe who you are.. :)

XOXO
Linda

random updates

2007-12-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

1) code:edge rocks my socks. i'm glad i did attend at the very last minute. best competition ive watched so far. gigi torres, patrick chen, lee daniel are just fantastic. :)

2) dance ensemble camp is super shag, not exactly enjoyable but im really glad i've survived! and i realised i have so much to learn, in terms of technique and showmanship.

3) funkamania is getting me excited and i really gotta buck up!

4) am playing games so much that i am starting to panic for not doing other pressing stuff at hand.. for instance choreography for th dance productions and this is bad. :(

5) i have a love and hate kinda feeling for the month of dec. love cos of xmas and new yr, gatherings and parties and meant that there'll be no schwork. but hate cos holidays equate to gifts exchange, and equate to money and lastly equate to I AM SO BROKE.

6) i have damn a lot of photos in my camera and i haven upload them, not to mention update them on blog. okay i am just super uber lazy. urgh.

7) i am kinda looking forward to my xmas and new yr gathering w my love ones. :) :)

8) i am starting to worry abt my dance piece for thdp. erps...

9) i am thinking a lot these days. too many things bothering me and it's bogging me down. :(

10) i am thankful to have you, my dear. :) thanks for being with me especially during this period of ups and downs. but pls dun always bully me and treat me nicer hokays? hah.

random random.. alrite. will have more posts before 2007 ends.

loves.

:_(

2007-12-14T00:39:00.000+08:00

so disappointed.. but i should have known better.

sigh.. i really should not have.. :(

hmm..

2007-11-23T18:49:00.000+08:00

talking about inter-textuality.

to be precise, it is the accummulation of meanings across different texts, where one image refers to another, or has its meaning altered by being 'read' in another context..

i cannot believe i am typing all these down while being so stressed about the upcoming papers. fortunately, i'll end this agony in a weeks' time. thank gawd...

well, but i cant help it but to vent out some frustrations in order to make myself feel better. pity myself sometimes that i am actually using my blog to record such unhappy things/matters and obviously with anger involved at times. typing makes me feel better. is it a kind of psychological matter on my side or is it really that therapeutic?

maybe i should start post random stuff and overload with pictures so as not to bore others as well as myself. so when i look back at the archive, it will not be so boring. but well, these type of angsty entries makes good reflections at times too.

anyway, i shall not be so explicit in what makes me really farking (i'm sorry) pissed here since there are people reading my blog. yeap. in my view, whatever one writes on the internet, it is always retrievable and someone out there, even if it i just 1, is reading what one uploads onto the internet.

yea the whole point and message that i wanna bring up is that: THE protagonist, whose is the whole cause of it, just dont understand. or perhaps they are just plain f-uped.

it's times like this that i really hate you.

I will remember you :)

2007-11-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

Nice and meaningful song..

Eight years later

Time goes by fast

Got my memories

And they will last

I try to keep it simple

Cause I hate goodbyes

I try to keep it simple

By telling myself

That

I, I will remember you

And all of the things that we've gone through

There is so much I could say

But words get in the way

So, if we're not together

I will remember you

I will remember you

We're a picture In my mind

And when I want to find you

I just close my eyes

You'll never be that far from me

So don't say goodbye

Cause you'll never be that far from me

I'm telling myself

That

I, I will remember you

And all of the things that we've gone through

There is so much I could say

But words get in the way

So, if we're not together

I will remember you

You were there when

I needed a friend

Thank you, thank you

I never told you

How much that meant

Yeah thank you, thank you

I will remember you

And all of the things that we've gone through

There is so much I could say

But words get in the way

So, I.. I will remember you

And all of the things that we've gone through

There is so much I could say

But words get in the way

So, when we're not together

I will remember

When we're not together

I will remember you

I will remember you

Two glasses of Wine

2007-11-11T20:58:00.018+08:00

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two glasses of wine from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things; your family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions; things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full." The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else; the small stuff.

"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you." "Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. Do one more run down the ski slope. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first; the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the wine represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of glasses of wine with a friend."

just wanna share this with all of you which i had chanced upon and thot it is very meaningful. :)

and yes 2 weeks to exams. and yes i am very lazy to update my blog. a little too lazy and busy playing games hahaha.. promised to update blog once after exams k? (i hope.) i have so many Many MANY pics and events to talk abt! i am just afraid i'll lose all the excitement to update once dec arrives. oops!

anyways, i cant wait for dec to come!! yay! look forward to so many exciting things too. and no let's just hope May never comes. cos i hate to graduate. :(

Dance to the music..

2007-10-05T00:19:00.000+08:00

i hope everyone had fun tonite!! it's great that the freshies are enjoying themselves. in fact they are picking up fast! just a little too fast, but i believe practice makes perfect and i will make sure they will shine during family hr! guess i'll take back my words of regretting to take up this job, cos this time i really dread teaching initially.

kinda excited once again.

beautiful love

2007-09-27T00:24:00.000+08:00

Just the strike of 12 reminds me that it's our day! :)

Happy 1 month my dear. <3

21st and Dinner & Dance

2007-09-24T02:53:00.000+08:00

my bdae celebrations were pretty much normal. celebrated among 4 groups, namely my dearest hallies, my beloved family, my jc darlings and my blast! dears.. think i shall let the pics do the talkings!

BBQ with hallies!

Breko with my JC darlings!

Waraku with dear blastards!

den it was Dinner and Dance 0708. took many pics.. it was fun seeing so many pple dressed up for the event. but a pity i din manage to take pics with all of them. time was limited thou. so yea.. here are those that i managed to bring here..

Spartans!!

Street Fighters

Other Characters..

Best Dressed tables

300

Street Fighters!

Pirates of the Carribean

Bleach

BUT the ultimate winner is...

God of Gamblers

Okay.. these are my personal favourites.. Top 6 in the list..

Guess who is this.. Chow Yun Fatt??

it's Jerome!! hahahahahhaha... damn funny la. (one of the finalists for best dressed males)

i love this. from god of gambles.. wat's gamble without the poker cards? ha. i managed to borrow one of the cards so i can be one of them too! LOL.

MR BEAN!!! OMG i swear Hans looked like Mr Bean totally! (check out his expression!) Dig his bear.. hehehe

hahaha.. Faren is damn funny la. Dalsim (is tt how u spell it?) damn cute can.

Next is the winner for best dressed female... Ms Aprilyn (Akuma). always win, u not sian ah?

and the winner for best dressed male... Mr KOK hua (Borat)... hands down with his strease tease show la! u deserve to win la. HAHA.

Winners

Mr Personality.. Edmund Teo Zhu Kuan. nice seeing you after 2 years my fren! :)

Okay.. and the well-deserving Hall Queen 0708, Haryati. She's simply chio la. omg i look like a lump of fats beside her. and trust me, she's damn hot.

我终于体会到。。。

2007-09-21T15:33:00.000+08:00

。。。，也感受到什么叫做最熟悉的陌生人了。

沉默取代了一切。

这是你要的吗？

也许你也已经不在乎了。

记忆然在，但事已过，不需重提。

今后各自曲折，各自悲哀。

没有我们，只有我和你。

遗憾的不是我们的结局，而是我们没有结局。

谁也没有料到这样子。

可能这就是爱情吧。

你。。。。要幸福喔。

rahhh

2007-09-18T16:19:00.001+08:00

i cant take it anymore! i need a NEW comfy chair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

argh. always almost fell down from my own chair cos one of the wheels came out and it's lost. how retarded is that.

i am so going to get one soon. argh.

or perhaps that could become my bdae pressie. ha.
oh ya if some of you are wondering what to get for me.
i need pencil case as well.
oh and i love shopping vouchers too. adidas? topshop? forever21?

thanks in advance. heh.

happy birthday to me!

2007-09-16T23:21:00.000+08:00

okay so my birthday is gonna end in like half hr's time. kinda sad. cos its my 21st bdae!! nothing special since the celebrations i had with my family and frens are just like those i had for the past few years. well.. but its okay cos wat matters is that pple still remember ur bdae and making an effort to celebrate with you and wish you rite?

i had fun on friday too. :) special thnks to aprilyn my chef (marinated those food), amos my cook, aaron, yiwen, clara, yayi, jacinth, yongbin, dom, jialin, last but nt least, kevin for being my companion thus far. wanna thank my wonderful family for the dinner just now too. totally love them and i am thankful that we are once again happy family. seriously i almost cried when they were singing bdae song for me just now. it's just difficult to deescribe my feelings just now. :)

anyway, thanks for all the pressies and bdae msges. esp to shiping and kianheng who sent me an sms and call when they are overseas. thnks a lot! and to my frens -> bizi, xuzi, jason, seekee (thnks for the flowers and surprise visit to my hse!), kenneth, jacky, yonghwee, hwasan, nicholas, anmei, mindy, nigel, suleen, davis, shanbing, aikhoe, matthew, eleen, weiqi, kuanlye, korin, key, jasmine, hweesiang, jimmy, nolan, cheekeong, stace, guomin, stephy, evelyn, hock, kinming, ann, francis, vincent, jonathan, weide, xinhui.

yeaps, photos up soon. i love my family and frens. and yes my bacon and cheese too. :)

happy linda!!

2007-09-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

haha first, i am happy with my buys from the vanity fair!! bought clinque foundation, shimmering powder, m.a.c lipgloss and blusher! still kinda gek that i din get the eyeliner from m.a.c argh to think i reach there so early and din get that. everything was dirt cheap!! *screams* okay not really super cheap but they are good bargains as compared to the original price you see..

alrite i have been a naughty gal cos i skipped all my lect today from 2-6pm. thinking that i will do my tutorials and project research.. in the end wat i did was chit chat and watching dance videos!! incorrigible i know.. sigh shud have gone for my lects.. damn bad. i must go NEXT WEEK!

anyway, came back to my room after free dance class tonite and saw something really sweet. now my wall is no longer so boring!! simply luurrrrvvvvvveeeeeeeeee it so much. been waiting for this pretty thing since june! thanks sweetie. *beams* :)

so i am happy happy linda now! especially BBQ tml with my darlings! counting down 2 more days to the great great TWO (+1). argh sickening. i am getting OLD.

dinner out!

2007-09-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

yay! with my a2 + temadance + spouses outing!! dinner at NYDC was not that great but well the company is. :) thanks for just being there my dears!! more to come k? cant wait for friday's BBQ to come!

anyways, i was looking through my photos and saw this! haha yeap for more pics on rag day.. there you go! (click!)

finally a group photo! :)

wrong timing

2007-09-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

omg... thanks to aprilyn and clara i am addicted to reflexive games!! now i can play full version everytime!! yay! =)

totally addicted ahh.. played my whole afternoon and evening away.. oops! i love days when i dun have to do schoolwork! but erm guess they are piling up.. slowly.. shucks. these games mite be coming at the wrong time. :(

oh ya and i am lookin forward to outing day and bbq with my loved ones next week. :) :)

Convocation Dinner

2007-09-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

here are the pics!! haha who ever wans the convocation pics go here

yes so we decided to be photowhores b4 performance!! jacinth and ping!! you are missing out! :(

spread the love! :) totally dig the decorations that nite! argh. wonder where's the BIG LOVE that a2 gals wanna kop...

anyway.. i have decided that i wun throw any bdae party.. cos it's too late to plan anything now too. but it's okay. what matters is that hopefully i get to celebrate with my different bunch of frens. :)

sigh

2007-08-26T02:16:00.000+08:00

to have or not to have?

i thot i really wanna have kind of celebration since this year is different and one only experiences their 21st once in a lifetime. but now i guess maybe i'll need to put off that idea? my parents are quite okay with me having a 21st bdae party but well they have their budget too since my sister is getting married in sept and they are expecting to spend quite a lot on that. so yeap. i was told that if i can find some place and catering blar blar within their budget they will agree to have it.

results? hmm the only one that i have been to before and thot it is not bad to hold it there is also not possible now cos of full booking of that place. sigh. i shud have check out the bookings way back in early august. have thot of holding a 21st bdae but i din have the time to check out the venue, cost and info due to orientation, rag and schoolwork, and well of many miscellaneous stuff too. and now, just a 3weeks away from the actual day, den i am looking for possible venues. isnt it a bit too late u may ask. and yes i know! kinda too late. SIGH.

checked out other beautiful places, and yes the cost is beautiful too. someone suggested to me of hlding at those function rooms that are common if u stay in condos but well i thot it will be weird to have your bdae party and someone else's condo rite? well others mite not think so but at least i do! any ohter suggestions?? i think this goes to show how bad my planning is.. or rather it's my time management. sigh sigh sigh.

maybe yea just like wat my mum says.. "go out with family and eat something good lor!" well, that's what that matters most rite? to have a proper family dinner which we haven been doin it for quite some time. :( but yea everyone wans something special for their 21st, and i am not excluded i guess. maybe cos a lot of my frens also done that, hence made me wanna do it as well. oh wells.

all i wanted to is to have something different and of cos a memorable one too. of cos throwing a bdae party is not the only thing that gurantees that. but at least it acts as an excuse of having all my close frens and my loved ones to gather together and celebrate this special day for me. that would be such a luxury. :)

2007-08-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

The past week had been busy.. but fun too!! well, had Temasek Hall Dinner and Dance Bash held at Zouk last wed. i thot it was a success with the entertaining games and prizes and everything ran smooth. Good job DND Comm 0708! :) here are some snapshots...

everyone seemed to have fun! :)
and here are my Yitta-ians!! our OG rocks! a pity i do not have a proper pic of everyone.. daniel was not ard till late and i could not find shunwei and nolan, clara went back earlier.. but another time yea? :)
basically that's about it for dnd bash on wed. i hope everyone had fun and for those who had not, let's just forget abt it okays? oh anyway, who wans pics for that nite from my camera can get them from here. (click it!)

and BBC went partying at MOS last nite.. haven been catching up with one another for long, i miss them! and yes i met Hwa San there too, he was there to celebrate his best fren's 21st. such a coincidence!

and seriously i think i am on a falling sick streak.. haven really recover since orientation starts. and i am still having fever, sore throat, cough and flu. argh. yes i am very sian, as u can see from the pic below.
alrites, good nights world. i should go rest now. zzz

being random again..

2007-08-13T17:11:00.000+08:00

ive got myself a new blogskin!! edit a bit and voola! here it is.. nice rite? pls say yes cos i totally dig it! :)

today marks the first day of school but well.. i am not in the mood for school at all lar.. first day and my lecture is at 6PM. yes.. 6PM in the evening!! this sem is filled with all cores, and i haven even got the last two cores that i wanna take.. yes i know this sucks and it is seriously disgusting. i hope they will allow my appeal to get thru. *cross fingers*

anyway.. i am having this very weird feeling right now. it is not a good feeling for sure. dun really know how to describe but it's like i am in a confused state, dun really know wat i wan exactly. i am just doin things in the heat of the moment. maybe i know wat i wan, but dunno how to go about doin it and it just sucks. cos it's really something like being caught in the middle of situations and feeling lost. argh. how?? sigh. i really have to quit being so impulsive and doing things passively. but some things done are done, no pt crying over spilled milk and you cant turn back time. nor can u freeze the time. yea, time is precious. on the other hand, i believe that time is so precious, and you never know wat will happen next.. since so, everyone shud just grab every chance and opportunities and do things that you always have wanted to do, follow your heart and not think so much. well.. so contradicting right? to do or not to do? weigh the consequences den.

hey!

2007-07-30T01:17:00.000+08:00

ASPERO: The Excitement From Within Orientation Camp officially starts tomorrow!!

oh gosh it's gonna be real tiring but i guess it will be fun! =D

alrites nights to the world.

random thots

2007-07-28T04:34:00.000+08:00

being the very random me again. well.. not exactly that random this time but since i am still awake listening to my itunes, i thot i mite as well visit my blog. ha.

anyways.. sometimes it leaves me wonder how hatred came about. it's definitely a STRONG word that i dun think i will ever use it on anyone. maybe not. cos if i do, i believe the person has definitey do something to me that it is unforgiveable tat it will scarred me for life. yes. to me i believe hatred comes from such serious cause. well to others, it can come from jealousy-den-turned-hatred, or strong detest of certain things, or something that others do that really pissed you off time and again, or it could be just plain childish-ness over small little issues that they cant get off their mind and cant overcome it. these pple? i call them L.O.S.E.R.S.

why? cos they have nothing better to do than to hate someone else... over things that they cant get over it themselves. yes irritating pple are common, and you mite meet mishaps caused by others, or well you just dun like the way others look, but hey! hate is too strong a word to use.. Words are so powerful, you dunno when your words mite hurt someone else. maybe pple are just insensitive and immature. oh well, then PLEASE grow up, goodness!

pple whom i detest and really turns me off are:

in fifth position, pple who like to overly attract attention... the genuine attention seekers.
as if they dunno they talk very loud, actions very big to grab attention, and worse still, show off watever shit they have to everyone. yucks!

in fourth position, selfish pple.
well this is self explanatory. nuff' said.

in third, pple who "chao geng", "gei siao".

these pple are realy irritating cos they like to fake, and to me they seemed to be cheapo, sometimes acting as if they are very poor thing and achieve the concern of everyone, acting as if there is nothing wrong when in actual fact it is not.

in second, insensitive pple.
i totally cant stand pple who are insensitive to others' feelings. it's either they are ignorant to things happening around them or they are cannot make it, super "buay zi dong".

in top position, pple who are immature and childish.
OMG.. these idiots totally dunno their irritating existence and their disgusting acts. maybe it's just them, simply cant grow up or they do things on purpose JUST to spite you or they just dun like you cos whatever reasons.

alrite, so this adds on a major point to explain why things are lidat. i hope these pple can "zi wo fan xing" and think abt this.

pardon me..

2007-07-16T14:53:00.000+08:00

.. but there will be updates soon!!! sorry really busy with work and stuff... i am ending work soon!! yay!

for those who wans pics from my beloved pinky bimbo camera.. i will upload and give u all the add links k?? sorry darlings!! really soon.... =)

til then!

muacks <3
Lindaa

yawns..

2007-06-27T02:27:00.000+08:00

just got back from Prudential show practice and i am so tired!!! oh my.. and guess wat? i gotta wake up at 730am tml!! so early!! it's gonna be a long day again. i am trying hard to convince myself all things i do, i did them for money. yes! money money!! work hard and jiayou Linda. next off gotta be next tue and den 2 straight weeks of non stop workin. i have to focus and i hope i wun collapse. things are piling up more and more. i really need support from my loved ones.

on a side note, i am glad the odds team came together. well cos i guess i know pple whom i dun really know better... on a positive note! =)) i hope we can win something soon!! dance explosion is a crap, hopefully remix will be better. but again, its malay who are always the hot favourites, so i guess we can gain good experience and exposure out of it only?

oh and anyway, i got myself a camera!!! finally.. after contemplating for so long, trying to decide between canon ixus 850 and panasonic lumix FX10 but in the end got this fujifilm z5 baby. lol, women are simply fickle-minded. but heck la it's definitely yayness for me still! cos i have been wanting to own one and now i got it! a pink one somemore. so bimbo. (like wat everyone says of me. oh gosh.) well, not that i like pink but well, that colour is the best among the rest, trust me. here it is!

it is gonna accompany me for a long time i guess! more to come baby!

anyway i am looking forward to sat! *beams* alrite kinda random. hahas! and by the way, i think the tiredness sets in so badly i need my beauty sleep now.

so..

2007-06-23T02:26:00.000+08:00

where have i been to???

oh gosh.. i dunno man.. time is slipping away so quickly!! i just realised i have been slogging myself away at work and have been dancing.. competitions and rag. phew! and busking soon, maybe. i dunno if my time and committments allow for me to do so or not. and i guess well, sacrifices will be present in one way or another. money and passion? or social life and loved ones? i wan them ALL! but yes i know i cant be so greedy. dun think i can take it physically and mentally and well, one can only have this much of time.

and now here i am, 230am still awake, and i gotta wake up like 6am later, being so tired, eyes red, slight headache, waiting for my hair to dry and thinking that i'll definitely not get enuff sleep, gonna be restless at work, and rush to remix dance auditions after work. i hope i will survive. seriously i miss those days of having to wake up late, not having to worry abt most things. but yea i chose wat i am doin now myself, and i dun regret. cos thats wat keeps me occupied and life dun appear so mundane and dull, alrite at least for me.

gonna be back to school and back in hall in a mths' time. busy life again. but different routine. guess it's gonna be a great year. i am looking forward to it.

that's all for now. good night world.
from yours truly.

argh.

2007-05-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

working can be so tiring.. just simply sitting down and clicking and talking but yet it can be so tiring. every nite i will feel so sian knowing there's work the following day, especially after a day's rest off work. but fortunately my colleagues are keeping me sane, and well the calls are so far still handle-liao-able. phew~ it's just one week of work! and i am really sian of working. tsk tsk. how to survive for the next two months? okay hokay! for the money! for the money!! *keeps chanting* better not complain since it is better than lazing at home with no income rite?

=)

2007-05-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

i am missing you.. yOu.. yoU.. and YOU!! finally get to see you tml!! so happy!! =)

suddenly tml seems so great! i finally found khakis to Zouk with me tml. hopefully i will get to see good old frens there too! yay!

home sweet home

2007-05-08T11:01:00.000+08:00

i am at home!!!! finally.. oh my this semester has finally come to an end. phew! seriously i am looking forward to the next semester cos i am stayin with my gals and i think i can slack more in hall activities.. meanwhile i am enjoying the holidays and slacking at home, catching up with frens, suntanning with my girlies, outings with loved ones.. beautiful~! okayy but the thing is i am starting work next monday.. and it wud mean less of those above too.. sigh.

it's gonna be a busy 3 months for me.. again. haa it seems that i will never get to really rest. but i guess it's okay cos i am enjoying every part of my uni life. erm.. well maybe not all of it. haha. oh and bon voyage to my BBC who are already in Taiwan enjoying the food, the shopping and the dancing.. =) yes i am jealous and envious but well i hope they will bring lotsa photos and hopefully some souvenirs/gifts back for me!! lolx. anw i guess i will not be gg overseas for this hols cos i rather spend those money on stuff that i wanna get. hmm but maybe a short trip to any island? any suggestions? but yea.. definitely need some companion(s) to go with me. =)

btw Phantom of the Opera was excellent. okay not that fantastic cos some parts are rather boring. but yea the staging was indeed marvellous! oh wells, looking forward to spiderman 3 tml, i hope it will be good, heard some good critics thou.

and i think i am heading to Zouk tml!!! yay! like.. finally? oh gosh i haven been clubbing for the whole semester lah! i definitely must go tml! hehe.. okayy i am gonna end here.. i will blog lesser this hols too cos usually when i am at home i seldom use the internet. moreover i am gonna work soon!! that means lesser time spend at home too. but i will try to post entries. yeap til den! ciaos~

boohoohoo~

2007-05-02T20:39:00.000+08:00

rahh~!!

everyone's going zouk can? hahaa.. and i am the only one left in my wing with exams and stuck in this pathetic room of mine.. totally no mood to study ahh.. sigh. but i still gotta study rite?

wah raos next 2 sems i swear i gonna finish latest on a wed man. LOL. really not too pls. haha.

okay enuff of rambling. i shud really start on my revision for tml's paper which i haven really started on. sheeshhhh...

i very kelian hor? =(

200 Pounds Beauty

2007-05-02T18:29:00.000+08:00

just caught the movie 200 Pounds Beauty and it was great!! It's quite touching at certain parts (yea i cried) but mostly funny la. A touching love comedy. =)) worth a watch! hees. thanks my fren who was "forced" to watch with me. haa.

and yeap i do feel guilty for not studying despite slacking for two days alr. i told u i am in holiday mood. treating this as a small break from not going out for so long and wat i have been thru during this exams? haha..

and yes she is damn hot.. never-ending legs ehh?

here's the song that i like most in the movie.. not the full version thou.. quite touching.. =)

Byul.mp3

=(

2007-05-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

一波未平，一波又起。

i really dun wish to see it happening.

i wan to go home.

seriously.

2007-04-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

i am glad i have come this far. last paper on thu and VIOLA! i'm throwing all my notes and books away! haha.

this semester is a very HAPPENING one. ha. i never knew or even thought my semester would be like this. many many things. about me or around me. good and bad. not many good seriously. but hmm it depends which angle and point of view you are taking. be optimistic and u will find out that it's not so bad afterall. =)

so many broke ups this semester and i am not excluded too. i treat it as taking a break. really need a break. phew! it's gonna be a long ssssiiiiiigggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....... ha. i can finally see some light coming from the other side of the road. have been in the tunnel for so long already. time to really move on. but seriously this question do pop by and appear in my mind: have i really moved on? well i really dun have the answer but i guess time will tell all. and most importantly, i wan to move on. with how things are going, and many things unravelling slowly and revealing itself one by one, i guess i just have to convince myself that there's no need to be so nice. i din like that outcome but at least i am glad that i realised.

the truth about human nature.

talking about this, i really wonder y is it that third parties and flings and affairs are happening nowadays? are those relationship so vulnerable and weak that either or both parties are unsatisfied with each other? if there's no mistakes done on either party, how would there be the entry of a third party? well, a person's antidote is anothers' venom. or.. does it boils down to lack of mutual trust and communication? hmm sounds like something that i would be interested in. Communication is a 2-way process whereby two parties alternatively listen, think and speak. It is inevitable and definitely an essential tool in maintaining any forms of relationship, be it love, frens or family. haa study too much about Communications and New Media. maybe i shud talk about Research Method.. my Thu paper. oh nvm. pardon my randomness.

HA! anyhows. the bottomline is: i think i shud really really move on. wat's the point of not moving on anyway?

just a roller coaster of emotions

2007-04-27T01:11:00.000+08:00

sigh.. i am just not good at handling stuff.. and i am very sorry for that.

sometimes i wonder, do i put my happiness on others' misery? cos that would be the last thing that i would want to do, especially to my loved ones.

Human nature tells me people are selfish, and they try to make the situation appear as it is in your favour. yea.. somehow.

these days i should really reflect on myself. i know i am giving mysef too many excuses, so many that i cannot and have already run out of excuses for myself. probably some are true but no matter... it's already causing some hurt and disappointments and crappy feeling somewhere. i can feel it too. i can feel the pain too.

everyone are so stressed out due to exams. mood swings, attitudes, unwanted misery..

it's baddd.. how to stay focus?

stupid menses

2007-04-26T02:20:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHH~ the cramps are killing me!!! argh. it's really REALLY baddd.. oh my gosh.. and i cannot focus but i cant afford to rest too. i hate it! i hate it!!ROAR!

me

2007-04-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

adapted from yiwen's blog..

about you
You are a Visionary
Your imagination, self-assuredness, and knowledge of the world combine to make you a VISIONARY.
You have clear notions of how things could be, and the confidence to try to make them that way.
You enjoy having a routine, and prefer comfort and familiarity to risk and adventure.
Not needing others' approval to forge ahead, you are confident in your designs for the future.
Your imagination allows you to envision the world as a better place.
You're better at thinking of the big picture than you are with details, and you can see wonder in abstract things.
Style and appearances are important to you, and you have a good eye for beauty.
You are somewhat rigid in your beliefs, which comes from both confidence and an aversion to change.
You are good at creating works of art in forms with which you're familiar.
Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:
Appreciate the earthly, functional elements of things.
Your clarity of vision sometimes prevents you from being open to new ideas. Try expanding your horizon of experiences, and experimenting with novel ways of doing things.

how you relate to others
You are Attentive
Because you like spending time with others, understand their feelings, and often know what is best for them, you are ATTENTIVE.
Some people are merely concerned about others, but you take action, helping people when you have the opportunity.
Although you care about others, you are hesitant to trust them to act in the best way on their own.
You don't let your concerns with people go unnoticed: if someone has hurt your feelings, that person will hear about it.
People energize and excite you—you are able to have fun and be yourself when you're around others.
You also learn a lot about yourself by talking things out with people, even if you don't always share things that are important to you.
You have a strong sense of right and wrong, and you're not hesitant to express yourself.
Understanding the dynamics of a situation is an important skill that you have, and you often intervene to clarify things for others.
Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:
You care about people, but finding the ones you can truly trust will allow you to get closer to them.
While you have strong opinions about what is right and wrong in the world, you risk coming across as judgmental—be sure to consider different perspectives when voicing your opinion.

not exactly very true but well for the fun of it.. =)
so if u wanna uncover your true self here it is http://www.personaldna.com/
enjoy!

not too please ahh..

2007-04-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

Introduction to Interactive Media sucks.. haha had my first paper today and i think it will definitely CHUI.. sheesh.. i stare at the question paper and they stare back at me as if we were strangers.. my gosh la.. my first reaction was actually tellin myself to work even harder for the rest of my papers.. lol.. i hope i can.. this module sure die.. it doesnt help when the lecturer is super uber bias.. she dun even recognise me when i am in her tutorial class can??

i think i kinda give up on that module even before i enter the examination venue.. but hack.. it's over haha.. i cant possibly let this module bring down my whole morale for the exams.. i can now only pin on the hope that my smoke-thru skills can give me a not too shabby grade for this module.. i really hate to see my cap to drop back to under 3. it willl really suck BIG time.

btw saw this IQ test from yiwenn's blog and i decided to try..

hmm afterall i mite not be a B.I.M.B.O rite?
"yiwenn, we should be called the smart sisters instead rightey?" HAHA.. so.. i am quite brilliant indeed.. lolx.

alrites.. back to books.. on a side note.. IKEA food is really good! :)

断点

2007-04-19T18:12:00.000+08:00

静静地陪你走了好远好远
连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变
看着我依然最爱你的笑脸
这条旧路依然没有改变
以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前
泪水就一点一点开始蔓延

我转过我的脸不让你看见
深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显
过完了今天就不要再见面
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍

我吻过你的脸
你双手曾在我的双肩
感觉有那么甜我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼
我总是可以看见
失信的诺言全部都会实现
我吻过你的脸
虽然你不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过得好一点
短开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前再听见你的蜜语甜言

2007-04-18T22:52:00.000+08:00

can i just tear my heart apart? so i dun feel anymore?

oh my..

2007-04-18T19:20:00.000+08:00

my body clock is super uber SCREWED!!! from 4am to 5am den 6am and progressively to 10 am.. i am going mad.. oh gosh.. i really Really REALLY have to sleep early!!! i cant possibly wake up at like 4 or 5pm rite? lidat i would definitely miss my exams.. thanks man.. that would be the last thing i would ever wanna go thru..

okay okayy.. back to study!!

Quote from Jason..
live for the moment.
follow your heart,
and surely trying times will pass.

i want to believe that.. but seriously it's easier said than done..
especially not for someone who is weak minded.

2007-04-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

Have faith in everything you do. Like what pple always say.. We must have HOPE!!

Focus on exams and nothing else since it is the only important thing rite now.

This is a scary semester..

...

2007-04-16T00:34:00.000+08:00

you never know til you experience it yourself..

i really really dread to keep thinking about this and i blame myself for being distracted and make myself feel awful right now. there is really so many things going on now, that i think i am going crazy. i wanna ask WHY am i facing so many difficulties this semester. sometimes i ask myself why am i going thru all this and the only answer i can give myself is that i am realy not good at handling these kind of stuff. if only i had one less thing to worry about my family.

i guess where matters of the heart are concerned, nobody is exactly right or wrong. i can say i really cant be bothered with wat others think, cos i know they dont know me so they will just make believe what is portrayed to them on surface. but... wat i really care are those pple who know me and still judge me the same way as the others.. maybe.. maybe they dont know me well enuff.. it is only natural that pple judge i understand, and i am guilty of such judgement too.. are you guilty of such judgement too? but they are pple i care about, and it just hurts when they thot the same way as others do too.

yes you may think i am trying to defend myself. yes i guess i am. but who doesnt when things are not exactly the way pple think? moreover, this is my blog, yes a public one, but i am just writing how i feel, pple read, they read, for those who doesnt, well den so be it. definitely not everyone has to know the whole matter, i mite not even matter to them. just a talking point for them i guess. but i extremely hate it when pple defend and distort the truth to suit their story. how can one assume their thots and impose on another person? the thing is if thats how you think, it's fine.. but it's bad when one thinks that way and announce to the world that it is that way. it is no difference from those gossipers who spread rumours any way they think it seems more juicy to others. i hate it when you sounded as if you are in the right. and you jolly well knew that you have brought all this upon urself. sorry for being harsh but i feel that i dun wish to talk abt what you did so explicitly such that everyone knows what you did. but you just had to do it. i think that is quite childish. but well, it is your own blog, you have the right to say anything and i will and should not tell you what to say cos it's ridiculous.. i admit i should not have lied to you but wat i really did wrong is that i did not settle things properly and things heat up.. so now i am the villian.

i totally agree that once the scar is there, no matter how insignificant the scar is, it will always be there. and precisely that is one of the reason why i know i cant continue. one scar.. you may use something to conceal it and it may still not be visible.. two scars.. you use back the same method.. so what if there's many scars? you know.. it will just accumulate and when u realise it, those numerous scars can no longer be concealed anymore..

ive cried so many nights but do you ever know? and its all because of you, do you ever realised? it's not only one or two chance we are talking about.. why do pple only try when they finally realise the one they have always wanted is gone? why cant pple do something when there is still hope? why do they only admit their mistakes when it is too late? you think i have moved on? i dun think so.

the more i think of what you have done and doin now, the more i feel there is no point. cos you still dun understand. i find it kinda crazy to want to rebut. and i think i shud not, and i did not. cos all along, the reason why this does not work out is really really really not cos of a third party which you always assume that is the cause. you are trying to be stronger, and i can tell you i have went past that phase already. i hope and i think i am stronger already. i am so tired of saying this but you yourself should be guilty of saying one, but doin another.

... and so you think?

2007-04-12T15:50:00.000+08:00

There is always two sides to a story and i guess your version is just too harsh..

why make the whole situation so ugly as if you will benefit from it? it just disgust me, totally.

i just feel more upset when pple pass untrue judgement about me when they are not even involved or understand the whole situation. dun assume or pretend you know it. cos you just simply dun. seriously, if that's how others think, so be it.. i wun even care or bother to make much explanation to pple who are just plain ignorant. if you are truly concerned, pls ask and be sure of the whole matter before you pass any unfair judgement about the whole issue.

it's complicated. the reality is just ugly. and you just have to accept it.. just like how i did.

just for clarifications for the ignorant ones: the you in this context does not necessarily refer to any particular person. thanks.

not anymore..

2007-04-10T06:44:00.000+08:00

it's painful.. it sure is painful. it's not easy you know.. i had a hard time struggling too..
...
...
...
...
... many silence... i wrote and backspaced a lot.. i dunno what to say.. i really dun wish to see this happening.. i feel very terrible too.. it was not a decision exactly that i can make.. or able to make.. i really cant decide.. but the truth took over.. i had no choice but to end this.. i hate to face this and i know i have been trying to avoid the reality.. not to think is impossible.. i dare not say i will not regret this outcome, this decision.. but this is not a rash impulse act.. i did think for quite sometime.. and my mind is set.. i can only tell myself that i will try not to look back... i will try.. i try...

very familiar word.. try... i guess it does gives some leeway rite?

i felt tears coming out uncontrollably as i type all this.. many memories flashes by.. and i ask myself are you sure on this? i cant bear to let go.. but at the same time i know somehow i had to.. drag mite make things worse.. is this gonna be the last time i cry for you after so many heartbreaks? maybe cos i cant find any reason to defend for you anymore.. maybe this time i am really very disappointed.. it's not just you.. it's me too.. i cant convince myself..

i can never look into your eyes like i always did..
i can never talk to you the same way i always did..
i can never rush into your room after lesson and dance pracs like i always do..
i can never go to your room to find you as and when i feel like seeing you..
i can never go to your room and kop your food and drinks like i always do..
i can never run into your arms like i always do..
i can never hug you like before..
i can never kiss you like before..
i can never pinch your cheeks like you always do to me..
i can never ask you to piggy back me whenever i want to..
i can never call you my dear..
i can never hold your hands anymore..
i can never love you the same way i did before..
i can never... i can never ever...
.. cos everything is no longer the same anymore..

i know that was the last time that i can ever hold your hand lidat.. i will try to get used to it.. i think i will.. and i have to..

and you know wat? i never knew i really love you this much. til now. but it's over.. really over.

so stress

2007-04-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

argh~ this is getting tougher..

i am losing focus!!! AAHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

let's get everything over and done with!! (projects, assignments, people and the stupid exams...)

yea.. easier said than done..

love is..

2007-03-27T01:51:00.000+08:00

.. amazing, it can catch you off guard as you fall in love without much realization.. at the same time, it can be torturing and confusing.. you hope that everything will turn out well, and wans everything to be fine.. but when something screwed up halfway, you just feel like giving up but yet you will find it difficult to let go.. cos maybe.. somehow you dun wish for this to happen.. you just dun wish to get hurt, and dun wish to hurt..

so what is love? you can have a whole list of qualities and flaws which you hope the one to have and not have.. but.. is it that easy to find someone to fit the bill? i guess not.. i think if i really do bear that kind of thot, i wun be able to get married even by the age of 30.

no one is perfect. but there's definitely someone out there who is perfect for you.. someone who is caring enuff, understanding enuff and sweet enuff for you.. but that does not mean that the person cant have flaws.. cos everyone does.. to encapsulate the flaws of the person you love is as good as loving someone who has, not just the good qualities of your perfect dream, but also flaws or qualities you dislike.. yet.. you cant help it but still fall in love with him.

yes i admit i am a perfectionist.. but not everything has to be perfect.. at least i dun think i am lucky enuff to own the best things in life...

so Love.... can i ask for just a little bit, just a little bit, just a little bit longer?

i just wanna love you the way you are. =)

2007-03-24T01:38:00.001+08:00

pillow says...

what a day!!!

though a day full of activities.. today is a
rather good day!

simple stuff do make its day.. i guess
ultimately it is just a simple one
who is easily contented.. =)

thanks!

so wat do you say, bolster?

it takes lots of courage to believe..

2007-03-21T02:46:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder..

am i really silly or am i just living in self denial?

why do i have the thot that it seems like i am just an option for you, yet you are my priority most of the time. prolly it's due to different perceptions..

if i wanna console myself.. i wud say, "it's okay to be options.. but at least be the best/top option and not just plain alternatives/substitutes."

in fact, wat i want is to be the only option in the category, and not having to share the arena with others. so what if i am the top choice? so what? i need to believe.. and hope that you will be constantly reminded of wats and wat-nots.

i hope it is just another cold night. i dun wan this to be an excuse for me to think.

random thots..

2007-03-20T05:27:00.000+08:00

hmm wat do you think of this new blog skin?? actually i din really like it a lot larr.. but i figured i shud change cos i am really getting sick of the previous one.. and i dunno why... despite so many things to do.. i decided to change blogskin at this unearthly hour when i shud be either sleeping or at least do some research for my project.. argh~ you know sometimes you just feel the urge to do stuff? yup that's it.

i am happy that eventually Max and neighbours get to stay in temasek hall next sem.. i was really quite sad and sian when the chances of him moving to Sheares is high.. and i cried cos of this.. how silly i am! i guess if they really leave temasek.. next year ihg ours guys sure "chui'! lucky they din.. =)

anyway this blog template is not exactly complete yet.. guess i will make some amendments when i have some free time soon.. i have lotsa pics to put up too.. but seriously there were too many such that just thinking of that makes me really lazy to post them up.. haha..

wah and i am so so SO hungry now!!! but i wanna catch some sleep now too.. argh~ women are so indecisive and fickle-minded that sometimes i cant stand myself too.. well that's so random.. ha!

...

2007-03-15T18:26:00.000+08:00

sheesh.. i just accidentally deleted a long entry i just wrote!!! argh~ this sucks.

anyway i was saying that i thot i am more free now that dance productions are over.. until i recalled i still have dance uncensored and combine concert, worst still i need to choreo 2 dances and can them teached by next fri latest. oh gosh.. this is very worrying.. and this aside there are still dance admin that is very worrying, thou i am not the one doing it (i wanna help but dunno how to). i ever wanted to organise clubbing and sentosa outings and a good group dinner with my fellow dancers but all these have to be done after all these pressing issues are over.. sigh* all because of *f up club momo.. i guess like chows, i am getting sick of stuff now.. it's nt helping much when i actually flunk in one f my mid term tests and the other two i got wayyy below average.. which is very bad and demoralising.. i know i can do better if i did study but this sucks big time too.

i really need time to catch up on my studies and i dunno why.. suddenly i feel very sian for dancing.. but i gues sit will be back in no time la.. just that talking about dance production, i'll feeel v sian.. not cos of the dancers or dances, in fact they got good reviews despite being short.. but cos of non-dance related stuff..

it's times like this i really feel like quitting.. =(

2007-02-20T03:13:00.000+08:00

do you believe that the rainbow always appear after the rain?

well, cos i dun really think so in the past... maybe i should start believing in them now... =)

i guess i dun have time to worry abt tt already so just gotta face it..

nuff said.. not exactly the way i expect it to be, but it is enough.. though some were left unsaid, but that was enuff..

i wanna feel happy again.. and i am trying now.

mixed feelings..

2007-02-14T17:09:00.000+08:00

This time it is really different.. exact day, different timing, and mixed feelings...

i really cannot comprehend what is happening now.. i just have the sudden urge to go to a beach and shout out freely.. i wanna release those weird feeling i am feeling now.. argh!! i realise each time i am sad or felt that i am not able to control my feelings, i will just blog it down.. but.. at the same time i cant just write anything here.. i could not express exactly how i feel cos this is not a private blog.. i have the urge of creating one but too lazy and no time to do this kind of thing.. but somehow by venting out all the frustrations here is like talking to someone and i will feel better..

i really cant take it anymore.. but at the same time it's not so easy to just let go or come face-to-face with it... i almost wanna breakdown already.. i do think if it is worthwhile to hold on or am i just thinking too much? i think it's both.. despite me being a careless and blur person, i am actually very sensitive to things.. everything. and i dun like the feeling of bottling things up. but sometimes saying out urself isn't gonna really help.. i really hope people do realise.. be more understanding..

... i can so hear the cryings among the loud loud music i am blasting... prolly being busy has its pros and cons.... cos i can forget stuff or neglect stuff... oh pls go *f hell... this blog is getting boring.. cos everything seems so negative i just could not find happy things to say.. i guess i deserve better than this. oh just shut up.

say hello to ms busy

2007-02-10T01:40:00.000+08:00

Life's been pretty much the same for me.. very busy.. well as i see this coming.. and i am already used to this kind of hectic life since long time ago.. sometimes i will think to myself is it worth it to be always busy, so much so that i find it difficult to catch up with frens, drinking coffee, chill out or out shopping with my gal frens..

i guess.. it's still worth it ba.. but seriously i do feel guilty for not studying hard enuff, for not spending enuff time for studies.. i can tell you frankly my top priority for now is really not studies.. but each time i go home and see my parents, talking to them, i'll feel determined to work hard for them.. okay for myself too lar.. but again i dun wan my university life to be just about studies.. of cos i will still try to study hard.. but its just not hard enuff.. anyways i dun intend to do Honours degree, my aim is just to get a merit in bachelor degree.. kinda unambitious rite? *sigh* i dun even know wat i really wanna be in future..

i am thinking of venturing into the media industry.. obviously not singing or dancing or acting.. not in the open scene la.. i was actually thinking of becoming a DJ.. haha! cos i love singing but not exactly cut out to be one so can only choose this option to pursue my love for music.. heh.. dancing is my passion too but at the same time not having the bless to be an outstanding dancer, not even close.. den i just wan my last 3 sems be filled with more dance, be more involved in dance.. cos i am pretty sure it will be difficult to keep up once i enter the workforce.. so y not enjoy the passion while i can?

but to be honest i am really getting stressed out and tired.. DP is coming in a months' time and i dun think we are prepared for it.. especially worried abt marketing and canvassing for items as well as the progress of the dance items.. i really wan to see it a success.. at the same time really tired with so many stuff gg on rite now.. dance pracs, dance admin, chingay, schwork and other daily affairs to worry abt.. projects, tests,unread lect notes, readings and assignments piling up, i really dunno how to handle all this.. well, its all part of an university students' life rite? i believe i am not the only one.. *trying hard to console myself*

i am actually looking forward to Chinese new year, most imptly i can take this chance as a break off from all this.. argh~ i dun dread wat i am doing now but i guess i really need a good break to rejuvenate myself. but.. CNY also means another week nearer to DP.. oh gosh... heeeeeelllllllllllllpppppppppppp~!!!

i love my hectic life. yes. totally.

totally sad and sian

2007-01-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

this past week isnt going smoothly for me and i hate it.

last monday i woke up so late that i did not make some changes for mi tutorial balloting, did not go for my lecture, almost missed first match of vball, waste money on cab fare AND i forgot to bring my thai 1 textbook for Sean such that i wil have to go back home on fri especially to take.

okay this is minute but yest i had some miscommunications with my bf and i waited for him to have dinner in the end found out he already had after i have been starving for 3 hrs..

today, i was really not on form and coud not serve well and spike well and we lost the match.. it's like everyone made mistakes and we lost to a team whom we shud not have in the first place.. in the end it is like i miss my chingay prac for nothing.. this is so depressing.. =((

and i really felt emotional this week such that i cry over stuff which is seriously not much to cry over for.. i hate it i hate it!!!

right now i oso cant join my beloved frens to taiwan in may and it is really sad cos they are ALL going.. yes without me.. which cant blame anyone too..

prob i am tired.. sick and tired of stress piling up.. but i realy dun mind being busy and occupied wth stuff cos they are things that i love to do.. sigh* just a depressing week for me... especially these few days.. =((

reflections, resolutions

2007-01-01T18:39:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!!! Happy 2007!!
i hope everyone had a great celebration/countdown/last night of 2006.

for me, 2006 had been a rather good year.. i guess. definitely there are bound to have tears of joy and sadness, fun and pain, but overall, it's rather okay. despite a roller coaster full of emotions and eventful year, i considered it as a good year cos i had a great start and end. not necessarily an end with a blast, but at least i am contented. afterall, i dun ask for much and quite an easily contented simple person. (oh but that does not meant that i aim low.. i can be quite ambitious at times, but it's just that i dun expect much..) i am glad that despite all the busy-ness and less meetings, i still keep in touch with pple whom i hold close to my heart and yet almost lose contact with. Dec is a good month of festive season and fun-filled with joyous occasions. i always look forward to Dec even though rainy days makes mi feel blue and spoil my outdoor activities. i am glad that i also made close frenz at this time of the year, making my year ending on a good note. sweet to noe that there are pple who cares for you, and share sorrows and joys with you. Thank you all my beloved friends and definitely my supportive family who will always always be there when i need them the most. i truly treasure them.

2007.. hmm my favourite number.. Seven seven lucky 7. i hope it works this way for me.. hahas!! many many resolutions for the coming year. nv think they really come true but anyhow, they keep mi in hopes.. for everything!!
(1) continue to be optimistic!! (despite the world becoming a less beautiful place to live in)
(2) continue to work even harder to pull up mi cap score (well, i am glad i did pull up a bit but still not enuff!!)
(3) dance more, not only quatity but also quality..
(4) have a successful Temasek Hall dance productions (*cross fingers*)
(5) be sweeter to my darling!!
(6) be nice to my friends
(7) be financially sufficient!! i gotta work hard during the next hols to save more money!! it's so tight now.. =(
(8) to have an ULTRA great year ahead!!! =))

yup that's all i am not too greeady rite? hee.
anyways photos to be up soon cos my com has some problem uploading pics.. so yeap.. til den~!!

2006-12-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

watched the "Against All Odds" on channel 5 tonite and learned a very meaningful proverb.
Like Benjamin Chong said..

I accept my circumstances, but i do not accept defeats.

how true.. we all got to make the best out of the worse circumstances and situations that we face and not to be weak in the face of difficulty. easier said than done sometimes.

merry xmas!!

2006-12-26T03:09:00.000+08:00

Merry Xmas everyone!!! (yeap it's kinda one day late but nevertheless it's the festive season so it doesnt really matter right? hehe)

anyway i had a great xmas this year.. =) met up with some really close frens and talked a lot.. glad that i met up with so many pple during a festive occasion for the past 3 days.. had nice time catching up with Heng, Quan and my beloved blastards dears.. had loads of fun talking, playing and eating over at Matt's place, it's really so much better than to squeeze in overcrowded places like town and get foam all over oneself or worse still, getting molested by stupid banglas.. anyway, watched "Night at the Museum" and "The Holiday" and i wud say they are really worth a watch!! The former is hilarious while the latter is rather sweet.. i love it! =)

Nothing much just a photo of us taken at Marina Square on sunday. it's been long since i posted a picture of us. so just wanna say i love you mi dear! merry xmas! =))

anyways.. i am looking forward to this week's activities cos there will be ktv, dancing, shopping, steamboat cum new yr eve's celebration and gatherings!! oooh.. i am so excited. okay gtg! shall end off with Santarina Linda.. Buai~

2006-12-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

Sad is an understatement. i think i am truly hurt by this incident. and i never think i was ever slack during practices. This camp made me realise and found out many scandals, gossips and pple's true self. very tired, but i guess i did enjoyed myself despite te few numbers in my group. Thanks to all who had been beside me when i needed company. and this does not made me fall anyway, it just make me wanna be stronger.

headache

2006-12-09T17:14:00.000+08:00

frigging seh..!!! i am having a serious bad headache now.. very xinku!! oh gosh.. i am supposed to go for dance prac this morning at 11am and i guess the alcohol made mi overslept and i din hear the alarm.. damn sian.. i thot sleeping further will improve the condition but no! i am still as seh.. wah lau supposed to go home de and i am still stuck in hall!!! AAHHHHHHHHhhh!!!! *pulls hair*

2006-12-08T02:13:00.000+08:00

it's finally over!! however i do not really feel the kind of post exam exhilaration.. probably i am numbed already. Nevertheless, it's still good to celebrate the end of exams, hence Sly, Ah Jiang, Max and I, the 4 of us decided to go for a 1-day short trip to JB! hee i need a break!!

We thot last wed was a good day to do so since it was a weekday and there shud not be heavy traffic as well as big crowds. well, thot of doin some shoppin there but i end up the only one who came back empty handed. but it was not a wasted trip cos..

(1) i had a haircut.
at Jantzen located at City Square. it was rather cheap, about the same rate u will get from a neighbourhood hair salon too but well, it is Jantzen, so i figured it shud be worthwhile. moreover i seriously need a haircut. the results? erm.. i din really like it a lot but it was okay. Max says he like it.. well maybe i am just not used to it. or it just din turn out to be wat i wanted. i guess it's up to individual to decide den. =)

(2) i had an experience with a robber. (oh gosh.. im serious.)
We were on the way back home, and just alighted from a cab on the opposite side of the road near the Malaysia custom. Max and I were walking a distance behind Ah Jiang and Sly, and after catching up with them, we realised a strange guy talking and walking beside Sly. The guy was sticking his right hand in his back pocket seemingly holding on to something and i felt rather weird. Suddenly they stopped and the two of us, stopped too, feeling puzzled. Within seconds, i felt the immense threat and danger the guy is posing. He finally took out his knife. (lucky it was a small one, not like a parang knife or those used to chop vegetable.. okay but it's bad enuff.) this is freaking the 1st time in my life that i kana or even hear my friends meeting with such incident (nt that i wan too either) and i swear my heartbeat was beating fast. and at the back of my mind, i was still thinking how the hell the guy was daring enuff to approach us when there is 4 guys and him, alone. after that i figured cos there was also 2 gals whom the guys have to protect too. hence, we have no choice but to give him our money. but anyway he is also sway cos the total amt we gave him is nt even more than S$25. we spend all our money oredi, but if we had a lot more i doubt we will give. oh i still had $22 tt time but i gave $2 onli, lucky he nv check. den he tried his luck further and demand for our phones, of cos we din give and kept denying having brought to JB. den he asked for our watches.. this time, the two guys (Max and Sly) really getting pissed and stood firm of not giving and showed fierceness in their tone, hinting the guy not to go overboard or else he will be sorry. the guy still relentlessly asking for our watches, not paying attention to Ah Jiang's actions and seeing this as an oppotunity to escape, Sly quietly asked her to go off. the guy shouted for her back but seeing Sly and Max is going to fight him back any moment if he was to go on further, he let us go and hurridly went off. ohew! it was definitey a close shave. imagine he was holding on to a bigger knife or that he doe snt work alone? i dunno wat will happen..

oh by the way if u r wondering the reason why we did nt run away is cos we are standing amost like a single profile with Ah Jiang in front, followed by Sly, the guy, me and Max. Hence it is difficult to run since he can stick out his knife and stab on any of us, w/o giving us any reaction time. if onli me and Ah Jiang can get away, i guess the guy sure will be beaten up by Sly and Max. Shit! i still feel damn bu shuang, not cos i gave him the few bucks but rather, to let him have his way. ARGH~ damn irritating the more i think the more i am pissed. but oh well, at least we are all safe and sound back to Singapore. i curse the guy to get his retribution!! and this goes to show how unsafe Malaysia is at night!! the people walking past us also din help us, cos they do not want to get involved in this shit but i guess if there's really a lot of pple crowding around, helping, the guy definitely will feel intimidated and will not try anything nasty! sigh*

wat a trip! =( nevertheless we will still go there again la.. but will defintiely be more carful next time and remember to dress down if u were to visit malaysia next time!! not wearing shorts but wear jeans and a plain t shirt in order to blend with the Malaysia crowd cos they do not wear berms or shorts out. Sadly, singaporeans are usually easy targets of those baddies. =(

Tema Dance first performance

2006-11-10T19:59:00.000+08:00

i am starting to love this big family of mine.. Tema-dance!! Kudos to all performers yesterday.. i am so happy we had pull it thru with rather good reviews!! yay! Like what chows said.. it felt like giving birth seriously.. LOL~ First time choreo and it felt kinda great.. guess i am starting to love choreoing? hmmm maybe.. anw some photos taken yesterday.. Courtesy of Jacinth's camera.. =)

we simply love..

photowhoring!!

Girlies gettin ready for the show =)

the pinky gals!!

before showtime.. i guess we need to take a group photo of the..

senior's item..

and of cos..

my beloved Juniors!

so here it is..

snap shots of juniors' item

snap shots of seniors' dance

Shuyi came down to support us.. how sweet of her!!

Seniors w Shuyi

before we go for our second show..

another photo first!!

special thanks to my girlies who have helped and stayed with me all these while..

i *heart* them

Presenting the Tema-Dance family!!

so random..

2006-11-05T21:07:00.000+08:00

guess i am partly busy and partly really lazy to blog nowadays.. dunno what to blog abt too.. not that theres nth to blog, rather, i have lost the habit of blogging already.. moreover i dun really like the idea of blogging events that had past cos i am lazy to recall maybe.. haha..and i rather use the time to do other stuff.. for example sleeping, watching sweets playing his RPG game, dancing, eating, blar blar, blar.. but just no time to have good meet ups with friends.. a pity..

anyway maybe i just let the photos do the talk!! in chronological order..

Convo Dinner (w Stace, Jialin and Gillian)

DND bash @ DXO

Nite Cycling 06

Fashion Disaster Victims

i think we all looked yucky but cute!! lol

the finalists.. HAHA

bLastard family!!

bombarded by Terrorists!!

me with Mr Kelvin..

mOi sweet family =)

NM2201 grp w Beatboxer Alvin

ELKOHA performance @ HDB Hub

yup that's aLL folks.. okay i will try to blog more.. anyway, i've recently watched The Guardian and The Prestige.. really worth watching!! meanwhile.. exams in 3 weeks time!! heeelllllpppppppppppp!! OMG..

busy busy!!

2006-10-13T16:31:00.000+08:00

this week is sucha packed week i hardly have anytime to rest.. okay needless to say dance is a great part in mOi life that i guess everyine will be tired of me saying that over and over again..

seriously, i really have thot to take part in the Pulse competition, thanks to Xiao who have kindly suggested some of us to join the juniors item to take part together.. but i guess i cant fuly commit.. partly cos my hall dance is oso on one of the prac days and mostly cos i guess studies is still impt since my results is kinda bad and this sem i really lagging behind.. BUT.. i am still thinking.. pondering... cos i scare i will regret.. opportunities only knock once or the most two on your door.. when i was in year one i feel i missed out some chances.. and now.. i am not a very competitive person.. but i do wan to improve as well as show what i have.. i may not have a lot.. i may have nothing much to show.. but all i wan is chances.. chances for me to improve.. chances to redeem myself.. oh well.. *silence*

anyway have u heard of this game called Super Dancer Online (SDO)? i think it originates in Malaysia and now it's getting popular in Singapore now.. it works like the US version of DDR and the difference is that u use the keyboard to control the arrows.. They say its very addictive.. i have seen the videos but have yet to try them myself.. hur hur.. i am scared i mite get so addicted to it!! mahjong is enuff to kill!!

oh! and i will be performing later at 7pm at Toa Payoh HDB Hub as well as on Sunday 5pm at the same venue to celebrate the launch of the SDO game i guess.. so catch me there if u happen to be around that area ba.. i dun mind if u come down especially for me.. HAHA!

Kinda excited for nite cycling at nite, gonna take lotsa photos!! (the battery better dun die on me!) and i hope i will not get killed by any accidents later at nite since i had very little sleep last nite.. tried to make up by taking an afternoon nap and i hope it helps..

okay gotta go!! updates soon i hope!! got a test on monday and i just knew it!! DIE!! =(

dance dance and more dance!!

2006-09-29T01:18:00.000+08:00

i love dancing!! i really DO!! heehee.. had Blast! class yesterday.. went for both junior and senior class and i really had fun.. guess it's cos i haven been sweating so much for 2 weeks after DP. it's weird dancing so much and den stop for a rest. well it's back now!!

and i guess its due to this reason plus i din really stretch well that my whole body is actually ACHING now.. really aching.. OMG.. i need a GOOD massage!! any offers? but i am broke.. and i was trying to choreo sexy moves for senior dance this evening but din quite really get the effect i wan.. *sigh* i think i need to watch more Kumi Koda videos.. i hope we all had fun today!! thanks mOi gals! =)

and HELLOOooOoOooo~!! please go and study and do research for ur project!!! AIYO!

hurt.

2006-09-26T17:12:00.000+08:00

maybe i am not that important after all..

and you always break your promises to me.. yet again and again..

i don't know why am i trying so hard now.

maybe it's not worth it or appreciated after all.

Random thOts

2006-09-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

i am bored. very very bored in this cosy room of mine. i feel like sleeping cos i am kinda tired but i know i cant cos i still have heaps of work waiting for me to do.. AHHHH!! even more boring.. mid term break is here ALREADY but it doesnt seem like a break to me.. project meetings now and then.. the onli days w no meetings are mi weekends and thu. *sigh* i guess i dun have much of a choice, do i? *frowns* in fact, w or w/o breaks/hols i'll still be seen lingering around A3.. either playing mahjong or hanging out at Ng's cafe (or watever Jialin calls it).. 6 weeks has past and i seriously haven been seriously getting down to work.. 5 modules to catch up to make up for the past 6 weeks or so.. argh~ irritating.. i meant myself.. =(

supposed to have a Johor Bahru trip this week as well as a KTV session w mi colleagues, but i guess both are goners now.. maybe a volleyball playing session wud be good enuff.. i miss my "biatches" as well as "blastards"... class is gonna resume on wed!! i am so excited.. i miss shaking tt booties and working those limbs.. HAHA!

alrite, enuff slacking... it's time i should start using my brains.

and i love you Max. =)

The BIG twO...

2006-09-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

finally.. it's my turn to blow that candles last fri nite when the clock strikes midnite.. there wasn't many pple ard in hall since it was a fri nite and most pple wud have gone home for the weekend oredi.. My best fren Jialin told me she's going home after dinner and Stacy msged me "Happy Birthday!".. and i thot to myself "sigh..." no one to celebrate for me this yr.. how sad.. thot the most is onli Max who will sing Birthday song to me..

was sitting in front of the boring screen listening to sad songs and net surfing.. starts to receive sms from many to wish me a Happy Bdae (well, at least still some souls who rem my bdae).. Den Max appear right outside mOi door, saying to bring me to a place.. okay and this time i thot there mite really have a surprise for me..

i saw some of mOi hallmates standing outside the TV lounge.. was kinda surprise but well am happy too.. thou not many were present and i knew most din noe and was just happened to be in hall.. i am still happy.. cos it makes my bdae a not-so-lonely one as i had expected..

i wish.. i wish ..

mOi bdae cake.. and it's really yummy!! =)

hee..

The organiser.. *i heart you*

the aCt cUte sisters..
(all photos taken w courtesy of Jialin, my photographer)

it was a small cut cake session and some phototaking. Thou small scale and not much of a big surprise, i am grateful tt Max actually make an effort to gather the pple.. as well as those who had really stayed and came over.. THANK YOU!!

anyway.. my present this yr are as follows..

A Swatch watch (omg i looked ghastly cos i had eye infection and my eye became so small sia.. how sway!!)

A Samsung Phone!! SGH E900
just what i need right now! my current phone is really on the verge of dying.. and it has been 2 yrs old le.. think it's time to change..

A Big Bag tt comes in handy!!

and oso sponsorship for a new pair of specs!! as well as Adidas vouchers and a really nice and cute keychain.. hees.. i am contented!! OH! i dun mind belated pressie thou.. animore? hahahahahaha..

The next day..

when Max is so engrossed in his game.. he does not really care abt me.. *bleagh*

waited for him to finish his game..

and we r now ready to go!!

we went Pizza Hut for lunch.. den movies "Little Man".. kinda hilarious hehe..

simpLy US!!

den we had dinner at Yoshinoya.. and JiaLin came to look for us..

me and JiaLin swEetie

we had to leave town early cos i was still having eye infection and darling insist going back hall early..

1st Bdae & Shuddup & Dance!!

2006-09-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

Yay!! Its mOi bLog's one yr today!! HAPPY 1st birthday!! This is oso mOi 101 posts!! heehee.. anyway..

Concert ended one week ago but i guess i am having the post concert withdrawal syndrome now. i am already missing those beloved Blastards!! i guess now i am a truely Blasted Blastard. HA! It was a GREAT experience to be able to take part in DR- Shut Up and Dance Blast! concert. It brings me memories of those SAJC dancing days.. i love dance! Dancing is my passion!! not at the competitive level.. but i love to perform.. it feels great to hear applause after performing.. likewise it sucks having no pple to appreciate the performance you put up. Thanks Blast! for giving me those excitement while waiting for ur turn to dance for the audience, thanks for allowing me to show pple what i am capable of (there's still SO MUCH for me to improve on..), thanks for the great experience given to me, thanks for allowing me to reminisce those happy moments once again.. i LOVE Blast!!

Special thanks to the choreographers ELKOHA, Xiao and Jacky for takin me in.. for believing in me despite all the bad comments i had w my attendance and performance up til the very last vettings.. i am still not a good dancer.. but i know i will try even harder. Also thanks to my lovely frens Winnie, Eleen, Korin, Hazel, Matthew who made my stay in blast a more enjoyful one.. and all the rest of the blastards who had been helping me in one way or another esp Rozanna (AOB) who helped me w mi hair during the concert as well as Margaret and Rebecca who helped me with mi quick changes..

Last but not least, thank you for all those who turn up at the concert to support me or for the simplest reason to watch the performance.

First Nite

mi darlings gaLs who came to support me

and mOi *Dear too! *hees*

nice silhouette..

Second Nite

So you think you are hot?

whAt r u LoOkin at?!

me photowhoring again.. hehe

my dancemates in SAJC!

mi loves

Third Nite

Stephy DarLing

stay out of our way!!

"Fast and Furious" Crews!! Vbrroom Vboom~

"Sweet Love" Couples

Ladies Nite Out

Presenting NUS Blast!

i guess all the efforts had been worth while and well paid off.. 3 full months of preparation.. now i truely miss meeting up with my frenz and of cos.. that god damn BOOKS!! Time to Study i guess!! too many mahjong sessions already! *sigh* i guess i am addicted.. to the wrong stuff.. CANNOT CANNOT!! and anyway i think i'm dead cos i haven been eating supper EVERY single nite ever since the start of the concert.. at this rate i am going with no intensive dance somemore.. i'll soon gain back the weight i have lost due to dance blast concert preparation or worst still become chubbier!! Like this...

A Chubby FAce hip hop dancer.. yes.. me.. (okay.. for the fun of it..)

2006-08-29T18:21:00.000+08:00

ALL Guys are just not trustworthy.

And seeing is believing.. i guess i onli believe wat i see.

One thing i am very sure.. i am not being unreasonable.. words can never describe my feelings.

"Tian xia wu ya yi ban hei.."

there are simply many things tt's more to meet the eyes.. i need to go back to the cosy bay.. the quiet corner where no one shud cause hurt to me..

Welcome to reality.

2006-08-01T02:34:00.000+08:00

Hall Orientation has started.. nt tt i am much involved in it.. or it realli bothers me.. but i think i'll miss out the fun tt a counsellor has as well as it does bring back some memories of being a freshie... well, tt was a yr ago.. i miss the cheering moments and bonding sessions.. staition games.. have fun w ur og mates.. lepak sessions and all.. being a senior attached have all this fun too but it's just kinda diff la.. i feel OLD.. that's bad... but i guess sacrifices has to be made since i had been working and dancing all this while...

Reflecting back on this 3 mths hols.. pple changes.. things changes.. many things changes..
well, i worked and earned those extra bucks which i am kinda proud of.. i went overseas for hols and it was fun.. onli regret is i think i bought too little things!! it is always not enuff u see... i danced and i felt that i really sucked at times.. how i wished i can dance better.. i can improve on mi techniques.. i fell.. i changed emotionally.. i feel sad at times.. i feel happy at other times.. all in all.. i think i had a fulfilling hols la.. making full use of mi time.. but i am sure i definitely lose out a hell lot of fun too..

now that school is gg to start in 2 weeks time.. i feel kinda sian again.. i really looked forward to school. but thinking tt i had to study again, i felt sianx.. maybe i really dun like books anymore.. but well it's always like this when u work.. u want to go back to school.. and when u get back to school, u rather work.. *sigh* the grass is always greener on the other side.. so damn true!! we must learn to cherish and appreciate things ard us sia.. if not there mite be regrets..

i hate to have regrets.. everyone else does too.. but some things are inevitable.. shud i follow mi mind or shud i follow mi heart.. for mi case, i usually follow mi heart.. it does not necessarily show mi the correct way.. but at least it isn't bad too... it's a tough decision.. this time i wanna follow mi heart.. but.. i dun have the courage.. and it's not always really up to mi to choose.. maybe i'll just 'zou yi bu, kan yi bu'?

i dunno why i am still not sleeping when i am actually quite tired.. but i just dun feel like sleeping now.. maybe i am waiting... waiting for something good to happen..

2006-07-09T10:31:00.000+08:00

i am SO sleepy.. slept for 3 hrs last nite onli.. need to blog to keep myself awake.. to keep myself occupied sia..

went for Val's surprise 21st bdae party chalet at East Coast last nite.. we had fun.. til late tt is.. had to take cab home w Jacky and Kelly and i onli managed to reach home at abt 1am.. Blast is really a crazy bunch of fun pple.. i like their company of cos.. lucky to have them w mi in blast.. thanks to Winnie, Eleen, Korin and Hazel.. and well, Matthew.. yup 21 is an age tt i'm kinda well.. looks forward and yet wishes tt it does not come so soon.. cos it marks the age of gg into adulthood.. which can be quite scary sometimes.. nvm abt tt.. digressing again..

kinda envious cos Val's parents are simply too sweet.. her dad did a power pt for her starting from the yr she's born til now.. and her mum did the deco as well as door gifts for us.. both even contacted us to give her the surprise party.. this, i know mi parents wun do it for mi.. well but i know i cannot compare.. after all, both mi parents are busy and they showered mi their attention and love in a different way.. i wonder how shud i celebrate mi 21st bdae..

i hope it will be great.. i mean not as in grand great.. but fun great.. of cos i wud prefer to have a party or sth where i can invite all mi frenz to come.. but it's like so common.. but definitely i wun want a lonely bdae.. it'll be super pathetic.. erm okay.. maybe it's kinda early to decide all this.. another 14 mths huh...

anw i just gt mi Birkies yest.. so happy!! i need to do some shopping soon!!

sometimes i just do not want to grow up. wouldn't it be nice if we can stay young forever?

2006-07-06T14:53:00.000+08:00

Me and Max are ok now.. i mean not that we really have problems but rather we did have some issues to settle and clear things out.. after all, "chuang tou chou jia, chuang wei he" and well.. guess we have some grudges to address.. after saying how we feel.. both of us felt better oredi..

i really wish to go back to how we were previously.. somehow i feel tt we r not as close as before.. maybe we see each other lesser now.. but isn't it true tt distance makes the heart fonder? i do miss mi bf when i dun see him but.. oh well nvm.. okie dun worry pple.. we r really fine. i guess it is stress and hectic work schedules tt is affecting mi mood.. but den again.. mi mood is okie leh. ups and downs la.. erm.. am i confusing u pple?

anw school is starting soon.. but i dun think i did play a lot during hols.. thinking abt it, i onli went Thailand for hols.. den work + dance.. and prob gg gentings to relax b4 school starts and dance..
it's like.. most of the time i am working.. yes for the money of cos.. i think i haven been dancing enuff.. in fact it's way too little.. i always have this kind of thinking.. if i invest more time in dancing, will i get more opportunities as well as improvement and recognition? i oso wanna play more.. i wished i did.. but i know if i dun work den where do i get the money to play? *sigh*
i guess i cant have the best of both worlds.. but i am glad tt i truely fully utilise mi time.. =)

oh well.. it's just 2 weeks more b4 i leave this dreadful place.. well it aint tt bad.. but some customers are just so damn nasty and sarcastic.. lucky i do have v nice colleagues here.. pple wrking here makes this place a little less cold as it seems..

i wanna go shopping!! i need a great revamp on mi wardrobe!! but no money leh.. haix.. find mi a sugardaddy!! LOL joking laa.. Max will kill me.. but seriously.. i am running out of clothes to wear!! =( aiyo gals always dun have enuff clothes to wear anw.. hees..

i gt soOoo much things to buy!!! sept is coming soon aniwaes.. HAHA.. okie if u get mi hint.. u got it.. if u dun.. den okie lor.. i cry to myself.. LOL..

okie b4 i go.. here's a joke for u pple..

Three men who were lost in the forest were captured by cannibals. The cannibal king told the prisoners that they could live if they pass a trial. The first step of the trial was to go to the forest and get ten pieces of the same kind of fruit. So all three men went separate ways to gather fruits.

The first one came back and said to the king, "I brought ten apples." The king then explained the trial to him. "You have to shove the fruits up your butt without any expression on your face or you'll be eaten."

The first apple went in... but on the second one he winced out in pain, so he was killed.

The second one arrived and showed the king ten berries. When the king explained the trial to him he thought to himself that this should be easy. 1...2...3...4...5...6...7...8... and on the ninth berry he burst out in laughter and was killed.

The first guy and the second guy met in heaven. The first one asked, "Why did you laugh, you almost got away with it?" The second one replied, "I couldn't help it, I saw the third guy coming with pineapples."

WAHAHAHAA.. funny rite? at least i think so.. =D

2006-06-30T01:56:00.000+08:00

i am a bad girlfriend...

i really are..

i am sorry.

2006-06-21T15:50:00.000+08:00

heh.. i am actually at work rite now.. taking some time off slacking.. just some updates of wat i am doing now..

so i am working at Starhub now.. it's a boring job.. but gd pay.. quite stressful at times.. and toking to customers will cause mi to vomit blood and hence reduce mi life span.. so it aint a v gd job afterall.. it oso reduce mi brain cells and juices cos i am tokin abt almost the same old things everyday.. i think mi rate of speaking has increased and mi monotonous voice may have unfortunately become more obvious too.. i oso have become more polite.. okie watever linda, u r just tokin crap now..

anw many have told me tt i have been MIA for v long!!! i think so too.. but i realli dun have the time and energy to blog.. not tt it's so difficult.. but by the time i reached home everyday.. it will be v late or i am just plain lazy...

aniwaes.. i feel tt mi life is so routine now.. it is no doubt boring but yet i feel i am using mio hols to the fullest.. given mi current situation so i actually dun mind =)) but... *sigh* i am now working almost 6 days per week (cos i realli need tt money..) and dance every tue and wed nite.. soon it will be mon, tue, wed, thu and sat nite... oh well... but u know wat i think i realli need those dance pracs to lose those pounds!! OMG.. u carn believe i actually gained 4 kg during the past 2 mths.. 4 KG!!!!!! wah liao eh.. those tt i lost during feb/mar all gone to waste le larr.. i am super super sad la.. so next time if u were to see mi.. pls pLs PLS dun tell me i grew fatter or gain weight or comments similar to tt.. i will not be able to take it... i am so fat tt i have lost confidence in myself and in dance.. i have 2 dance performances coming up in aug and sept..!! shit la... haix i am truly depressed rite now.

i am oso truly exhausted.. both mentally and physically.. slogging hard and try to do OT every now and then.. work a lot, rest v little.. i am really afraid tt mi body will not be able to take it.. it felt worse when u r fat and sick.. argh!! the thot of tt makes me feel like shit.. and i onli accompany Max whenever i can.. since we r both busy working.. i think i neglect mi gals in a way.. but oh well most of them r rather busy too.. esp seek, jars and stace.. so jialin is the free one now.. oops =x i oso neglect mi blast frens!! miss them lots lots too.. i realli hope to hang out w them more..

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aniwaes.. Max has his 23rd bdae on 17th of June.. it was not realli well planned.. but i guess we both enjoyed ourselves.. it all started w the room allocation thingy in the morning which got quite screwed up for mi.. but lucky now everything is fine.. on one condition tt is.. but finally.. thank god.. okie and hence the room allo thingy took the whole morning and we finally met at 230pm.. i was waiting for him since 1230pm.. but not his fault cos afterall he just wan to help mi.. =) thanks dear.. meanwhile he was there helping mi.. i was not just slacking at home wor!! i actually went to buy a cake and brought the flowers, cake and card to his house w/o him knowing.. heeheee.. and damn the weather was so hot tt day and i took cab all ard.. lucky everything went quite smoothly in the end.. phew~.. i hoped he realli liked the watch i gave him.. and tt he had enjoyed himself.. oh well he better be!! LOL.

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truefully i do look forward to school in aug.. y? cos i have councellor camp and orientation and i think it will be fun.. supposed to join jasmine in the union camp to be counsellor but i decided tt earn money is more impt.. hence back out last min.. and oso it's our 1 yr together!!! heehee.. so happy and excited.. =D and oso there will be SAJC alumni and NUS blast performances.. and mi best fren jialin is gonna stay in the same hall as mi.. we have not been in the same school since primary sch!! and i think i got quite a gd room location.. i am contented!! yes! so i am indeed looking forward to school!! yay!

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okie and i think i got a bad haircut.. tt i am so regret.. the hairstylist had styled it nice the other time.. but dunno y it just looked screwed up after tt.. and mi fren still say it's ok la.. hair will grow de.. -_-" meaning to imply mi hair v ugly laa.. *sob* but anw i think it is getting better too..
oh well..

alamak... many random thots today.. pardon mi if u find this overwhelming.. LOL.

2006-05-19T21:54:00.001+08:00

i am sorry. but i am realli very busy lately.. started working at starhub on monday.. finally got a day off to accompany mi *Dear today.. we watched the Da Vinci's Code!! it's realli nice with it's intelligence triggered concept.. has off on sat too cos tml's NUS open house.. gotta perform Boom Boom Boom at the central forum.. den support Blast! seniors in the Hip Hop International competition.. definitely carn miss them!!

anw, work has been quite ok so far.. but i realli got a lot more to learn from mi colleagues.. i feel tt i am like a burden to them.. dun realli like the feeling of bugging them.. but no choice.. in any case i hasn't been thru training too.. sadly.. i needa work hard!! and try to work more OT.. MONEY MONEY!!! i need lotsa them.. in several debts and bills to clear.. sounds pathetic eh? =(

anw.. photos from Bangkok will be up soon.. i hope.. prac has not time to do all this.. work and dance are wat i am busy with now.. still gotta spare some good times with the gals and of cos darling too.. one thing to console myself? probably a self-fulfilling hols at the end of the 3 mths..

alritey.. gotta stop here.. i guess mi next entry shud be quite long later.. til then folks~!!

2006-05-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

okay i know i took like 4 days to enter this entry, cos i had to rush to move back home and lotsa stuff gg on.. but who cares? it's finally oooooovvvveeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! yay!! (need huge fonts to show how elated i am! hahas!)

but this hols aint gonna have much free time for myself too..
1) Alumni dance commitments
2) Work
3) Outings w mi dear gals
4) Dates w mi darling *Dear..
5) Counsellor + freshmen camp in TH
well, it doesn't seem a lot.. BUT i realli have no time!! lucky i still have 1 week before and after mi 2 mths job.. gonna go Bangkok!! i seriously needear shopping.. but i am broke too. so i am gonna use future money.. hehe..

and yes!! i am gonna fly to Bangkok this fri!! so exciting!! and it feels extremely good when u r gg w ur loved ones.. whee~ will come back with many photos!! i promise!! heehee..

looking forward to tanning session with seek and jasmine tml!! yippie!! i am SO fair now..

2006-04-26T14:04:00.000+08:00

This is awesome.. Fucking goOd!!

Meanwhile.. hang on!! 2 more days!! yay!!

2006-04-16T13:13:00.000+08:00

5 days to exams... ROAARRRRRR!!!

13 days to holidays..

19 days to Bangkok trip with Darling *Dear..

i am so excited and sooo looking forward to my 3 months holidays!! heehee..
okay i guess i shud stop daydreaming about it and get back to my books.. argh~

2006-04-10T13:36:00.000+08:00

Stressed arrrrrr!!

My 1st paper is like in 11 days time.. and guess wat? i seriously haven started studying!! last sem by now.. i would have studied a bit already!! my gawd.. and this sem's been very occupied by dance dance and more dance.. not forgetting other hall activities and part time jobs.. this is crazy.. i shud work even harder!! condering this fact and that i have to improve my cap scores!! i am realli stress if you dunno.. but wat am i doin now? watching Miss Singapore Universe and Superband and True files on TV.. not dat the exam questions will ask me who's Ms S'pore and whose the qualifiers.. argh~ i have been relaxing and slackin too much!! Fri's screening of dance videos til late, sat's outing with Max.. Sun's home and dinner at his place and watching tv!! alamak!! i am a bad student.. and now i am blogging.. i just want to de-stress myself really... someone please save me!!

looking at my project grades for mid term i seriously think my grades will be even worse than last sem.. this is extremely bad!! how how? my participation maeks are bad too.. no thanks to many skipping of tutorials and not voicing (at all) during tutorials.. *sigh* now onli miracles can help me.. or even better.. my fairy godmaother or genie.. watever la!!

and i need to settle my holiday job soon!! if not i dunno wat i shud do in the hols w/o money liaox... freak!!! *screams*

Wish Me LUCK for now.. i realli need it.

2006-04-07T17:21:00.000+08:00

..Me and You..

*Dear and i went Kimage Prestige at PS to cut hair today.. well i thot of cuttin away my damaged hair and trim it realli shorter.. and Max wanted to trim his sides too.. den we decided to take neoprints since it had been quite long since the last one.. haa..

Love is aLL arOund!!

i thot he looked kinda jap here.. but *Dear thot we looked like ah lian and ah beng.. *diaoz*

here's another photo of his past image..
taKen on Our 6th MOnth!!

okay okay i looked the same.. but seriously there's not much of variation when u have long air rite? aniwae i guess i prefer Max's new hairstyle now.. not so boring and something different!! i like guys with styled hair..rather than "piak-piak tou".. er i hope u get what i wanna say.. hee..

just a note for you..

together for almost 8 months.. times really flies.. but i felt we've been together even longer.. prob cos we see each other almost everyday.. it have been a happy road with you so far.. and i am glad we have come this far.. and love still as deep.. still going on strong.. thought quarrels are inevitable and common especially this sem.. i believe we became closer and know more abt each other thru those quarrels.. we may not be able to fully understand each other yet.. abt our passion.. our priorities.. but hopefully one day we will.. or at least show support despite not being able to understand or know.. thanks for always being there for me.. and being tolerant.. i know ur concerns for me.. but sometimes i guess i am stubborn too.. and not able to priortize well.. hope you.. being my sweet darling.. will be able to understand this point.. i think i am falling deeper in love with you each day.. dunno if you feel the same way too? aniwaes, let us work hard for 3 more weeks! and we will be able to enjoy each other's company more oredi!! love you!! *mmuacks*

2006-04-07T02:35:00.000+08:00

Dance Uncensored 06 (28th and 29th Mar)

i am actually quite lazy to blog now.. soo.. let the photos do the talkings kaes? hehe

Our TH boombastic hiphop team!!

Boom Boom Boom!!!

redbull gaLs

yes.. we r trying to advertise for redbull..

spastic guys.. haha

Step into OUR world..

sexy genies =)

After Day1!! tired.. but still wanna take mooore pics!

wenn, jac and me!!

photo whores..

puffle fishes!!

tarepandas!!

hee

Day 2

rose for you?

act cute!! hee

i love my coloured contacts! whee~

i think Freda's v chio.. (er.. did i get her name rite?)

Getting crazy.. i love Shuyi!!

aniwaes.. here's a tip to gd performance (& having the gd expression that is..) on stage..
you will either have to (1) pout ur lips machaim u wanna kiss someone
or (2) open ur mouth machaim there's an apple in it!

like this!

and so everything started and ended with..

crazy bunch of fun ppLe..

and they are..

ppLe from aLL wOks of Life.. hehehe

TH Boomers..

up lar!!

2006-04-03T06:29:00.000+08:00

My Dreamhouse!!

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are good at making friends and when the joyful moment arrives, you make the most out of it. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes. When it comes to love, you shut yourself off. It's difficult to win your heart because you have decided to keep your feelings deep inside. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

2006-03-28T07:20:00.000+08:00

wah seh.. i just realise my last entry is a week ago.. and that all my recent entries were so far apart.. hmm yes by right i shud not be blogging now.. cos i have 3 projects deadline coming real soon.. one this fri, one next mon and one next wed.. argh~ the worst thing is i haven done ANY research yet!! shit... i am so dead.. 3 weeks to exams and i feel that i din learn anything for this sem except for Thai lang.. how how?!?! terrible. can i ever work very hard? can i make up for wat i have missed out for the past 2 months? i doubt so. i am seriously very afraid that i wun be able to stay next sem cos i love hall life.. i love the fun pple ard me.. and of cos i realli fear that mi cap score will drop even lower.. that will be the last thing i wanna know.. *sigh*

on a happier note.. sweet darling *Dear popped by a pleasant surprise on thu nite.. he bought me a set of creative speakers and woofer!! in red too!! (mOi fav colour..) it has always been up on mOi wishlist and i finally got them!! so sO soooo happy!! hee. so sweet of him.. haha and he always use the same method.. as in give me a surprise when i go back to my room.. always have a way to get my transponder w/o me knowing or suspecting.. and i always fall into his same old method.. love you darling!! thanks for always being there for me and being tolerant towards me..

aniwae, if you wonder wat i am busy with.. well other than TH dance production and xinyao which has been over and got done with.. i still have two dance performance coming up.. 1st, dance uncensored!! on tue and wed nite and UCC.. it's a KR hall dance production but every other halls r performing one or two items too.. standard promise to be good lar.. and 2nd, cultural showcase which we will be doin the same item too.. so ya.. tt's abt it so far.. i got to get back or rather.. start getting to my study mode soon!!

2006-03-21T08:50:00.000+08:00

Photo Galore

Presenting Tiente!!

and finally!! *clap clap*

waitresses, genie, slut (oops!) and gd gal!! lolx

erm wat's XQ doin there?

i love pr-pr!!

wah JOHN.. dun block leh!!

my dearest whore for life!! =D

ooh la la.. sexy goddess-es

can u see how excited we r b4 the show?

me and Robert

i love shiping!! *muacks*

wat eLse do i need to say? *beams*

my "so-in-love" partner for the nite!!

Kevin is obviously very happy!! hahas

we r a bunch of fun-loving ppLe!! =))

i love TH dance!! it's definitely an memorable experience to hold a dance performance in MOS.. especially with all these pple.. so gonna miss dancing in function room and the dancers!! *muacks*