Hall Orientation has started.. nt tt i am much involved in it.. or it realli bothers me.. but i think i'll miss out the fun tt a counsellor has as well as it does bring back some memories of being a freshie... well, tt was a yr ago.. i miss the cheering moments and bonding sessions.. staition games.. have fun w ur og mates.. lepak sessions and all.. being a senior attached have all this fun too but it's just kinda diff la.. i feel OLD.. that's bad... but i guess sacrifices has to be made since i had been working and dancing all this while...
Reflecting back on this 3 mths hols.. pple changes.. things changes.. many things changes..
well, i worked and earned those extra bucks which i am kinda proud of.. i went overseas for hols and it was fun.. onli regret is i think i bought too little things!! it is always not enuff u see... i danced and i felt that i really sucked at times.. how i wished i can dance better.. i can improve on mi techniques.. i fell.. i changed emotionally.. i feel sad at times.. i feel happy at other times.. all in all.. i think i had a fulfilling hols la.. making full use of mi time.. but i am sure i definitely lose out a hell lot of fun too..
now that school is gg to start in 2 weeks time.. i feel kinda sian again.. i really looked forward to school. but thinking tt i had to study again, i felt sianx.. maybe i really dun like books anymore.. but well it's always like this when u work.. u want to go back to school.. and when u get back to school, u rather work.. *sigh* the grass is always greener on the other side.. so damn true!! we must learn to cherish and appreciate things ard us sia.. if not there mite be regrets..
i hate to have regrets.. everyone else does too.. but some things are inevitable.. shud i follow mi mind or shud i follow mi heart.. for mi case, i usually follow mi heart.. it does not necessarily show mi the correct way.. but at least it isn't bad too... it's a tough decision.. this time i wanna follow mi heart.. but.. i dun have the courage.. and it's not always really up to mi to choose.. maybe i'll just 'zou yi bu, kan yi bu'?
i dunno why i am still not sleeping when i am actually quite tired.. but i just dun feel like sleeping now.. maybe i am waiting... waiting for something good to happen..