realm of imperfection

The Girl

Linda
Sept 16th 1986
a dancer
a dreamer
an imperfect perfectionist

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sunflowers
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Lin
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Ping
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Stace
teRence
WeiQi
Wenn
Winn

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> i've moved..
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> MIA
> and so i hear..
> 10 things that i wanna do right away..
> random post
> they got talent.
> you
> it's a bitch when..
> dance uncensored 08

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Monday, October 31, 2005

i guess often we will have days or nights when we wiLL feeL lonely and low.. Just like in life, there r bound to be highs and lows to prob make life more interesting? Just like a nite like this, where the tranquility of the nite just sweep into mi room, making it ever so quiet and lonely, unlike the usual B3 short wing.. the feeling of being alone strikes mi again. many things r running thru mi mind, invading mi thots rite now..

Stace is fast asleep, Jessica is not in her room, Chiara is busy studying, Key is out for supper, Jialin is so far from mi, Shiqi is yet another fren dat i've neglected and oso drifting further from mi, *he is busy rushing his assignments.. everyone has their things to do, everyone is busy.. except mi.. i tink i'm thinking too much.. am i being emotional or am i just plain tired? certainly, i have heLL lot of better stuff to do than to whine and typing rubbish here.. but i chose the latter.. i know i definitely dun have the mood to study rite now.. it just dun feel right..

Just came back from Clara's room and i knew dat i missed out heLL lot of fun just now.. just prob 2 hrs ago.. it's mi fault.. i could be not being lazy and tired and join mi frenz to celebrate mi dear gal's bdae.. but i din.. aniwae dat's not the main point.. thou i do feel bad abt missing those fun..

i realised actually i do realli have a low self esteem.. and sometimes pessimistic.. i do need ppLe esp mi loved ones, mi frenz to constantly assure mi dat i'm being loved by them.. unless this is not the case rite from the start.. i'm starting to wonder do i treat mi frenz good enuff? do i appear fake in front of others? do i play mi role as a fren (not just hi-bye fren) to mi frenz? do i neglect mi frenz so great dat i shud be beat up? am i a bad person?... sometimes i feel loved, but sometimes i dun.. happy-go-lucky and crazy as i may seem most of da times.. but deep down inside it may appear just as the opposite..

suddenly i miss mi family, it's not dat i dun miss them at other times.. but as busy as i am.. i often forgot how much i missed them and dat i realli miss them.. Annie msged mi today and i realised i do miss mi dearest sis a lot.. i used to talk to her til she got married.. lucky i still have Janet who will listen to mi rantings and watever shit i produce.. sometimes, i just broke down in front of them halfway thru talking.. and it just felt great after everything cos it sort of gotta off mi chest and they show dat they cared.. which is a very great console to mi..

here in hall, i do have good frenz whom i shared good times with.. i felt sometimes not able to open to them as much.. not even *him too.. not dat i dun wan to.. but i cant.. i felt sometimes it wud be better to keep inside myself, and put up a strong front in front of them so i'll feel better abt myself.. feel stronger.. i rather coop inside mi room and cry to myself than to let them see mi shed tears.. it makes mi vulnerable.. however, at the same time, while i'm crying myself inside, i hope they can shower mi with some concern so dat i will feel better.. this is a very contradicting thot, i know.. it feels like oxy-moron, i know.....

in any case, i feel as if i've talked to an invisible fren thru bloggin.. thru this channel of writing.. prob this is an alternative for mi.. for those who feel dat they actually do care for mi, pls dun ask mi wat happened, cos i know much probe will lead mi to crying.. So, a hug.. a good hug.. will be very much appreciated already..

here's a smile =) for myself.. from mi..

-Sign Off @ 6:34 PM :)

i'm finally back in mOi room.. sitting on mi comfy chair (which i din realised before) after 2 days' long of work.. standing and talking at the Starhub roadshow at Jurong during the weekends.. i can reaLLi feeL for mi poor thighs and ankle sia~ damn tiring i say! Money not easy to come by sia.. not used to standing for long hrs.. haven been standing soOo long ever since after august's roadshow..

i am so tired dat i feel asleep on da bus back when mi colleagues r toking thru out the bus journey.. i am so tired dat i am too lazy to join mi frenz for a bdae celebration.. forgive mi! realli very tired..

aniwae, tomorrow's Z Chen's campus concert held at Temasek Comm hall!! heehee.. gd gd.. such a convenience for mani.. *hiak hiak* but definitely we have to STAND again!! argh~ enuff of standing! oh well, exams coming in 3 weeks' time and i'm seriously not doin any work.. i wonder how dead wiLL i be.. haix so many things to do.. but so little time.. *frowns*

-Sign Off @ 3:25 PM :)

Saturday, October 29, 2005

A very meaningful blog entry that i happened to prance upon..

A group of Alumni, highly established in their careers, got togetherto visit their old University lecturer. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.

Offering his guests coffee, the lecturer went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups-porcelain, plastic, some plain looking, and some expensive and exquisite, telling them to help themselves to hot coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the lecturer said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the better cups and are eyeing each other's cups."

"Now, if life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain life, but the quality of Life doesn't change."

hOw true.. who does not love pretty stuff.. everyone judges a book by its cover.. even if it's onli da slightest bit.. i too, admit dat i do judge peOple and objects by their cover, but judgement can go wrong tOo.. yes, in front of ur own eyes.. it's aLL but just a matter of time of when wiLL yOu reaLise it.. Sometimes by concentrating on the cup, we failed to enjoy the coffee in it.. so ppLe out there.. enjoy ur coffee.. *winks* (but.. i dun drink coffee.. hOw?)

-Sign Off @ 7:50 AM :)

Thursday, October 27, 2005

i feel happy today cos mOi thai teacher thinks i'm pretty and two of mOi dance frenz commented, "You very pretty leh.." to mi.. haha oops others mite think otherwise but i dun care.. cos such simple praises do reaLLi make mi day.. ya so mi Lovely frenz out there.. you know wat to do huh..? hahas! no lah, i was just kidding.. i mean who dun like praises? however, praises mite seem fake when there's no excuses or reasons for you to agree OR simply dat da praise sounds fake.. hmm am i makin sense here? watever lar..

oh ya i feeL happy too cos i felt great abt the dance during blast today!! not to foret to say, "happy 4th bdae, bLast!" weLL, it's the last dance practice for this sem too.. not dat i am lazy or dislike bLast, just dat i feel i finally have mi wed afternoon-evening to myself.. whEe~ i need to study!!

today felt a little different cos i din have tutorials to rush... at last.. not dat i dun have assignments.. but it's just not as rush as usual whereby i have tutorials due the following day everynite.. in actual fact, i do have lotsa to catch up but i just dun feeL da sense of urgency of doing them (which is bad!!)

okie.. i shud get mOi engine started!!

-Sign Off @ 12:46 AM :)

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

should i apply for transfer to science and major in maths..

or should i just stay on in Arts and considering majoring in either maths or social work...??

the thing is i'm quite lazy to apply for transfer but i know i will continue to slack if i stay in Arts since i hate readings.. however, mOi linear algebra's mid term results is very demoralising dat i feel i mite not be able to survive in the competitive worLd of Maths where aLL the PRCs and Bangala r spoiLing the market!!

argh~ this is a tough decision..!! and this is realli crucial and important such dat i'm afraid i mite make the wrong choice.. HOW???

aniwae, since i'm here.. Let mi wish mi 2 frenz *Jasmine and Jason* a very happy 19th bdae!! *clapclap*

-Sign Off @ 4:02 AM :)

Monday, October 24, 2005

hoho.. just came back from BBQ at C4.. din eat a lot but enuff to make mi reaLLi full.. guess the volka ribena and volka redbull contribute half to the fullness.. (haha mi sentence structure sounds wrong.. but heck!) weLL, i had fun.. not exactly the food, but the company i enjoyed.. esp with *Dear! haa.. the highlight is actually when the guys tried to sabo Clara since her bdae is onli next sunday.. they actually beat her with cane (sounds so "bian tai" haha) and wrap her with maskng tape, followed with the stuffing of ice.. i bet she feel damn cold lar.. hmm.. gd idea rite? so.. whose bdae coming?

Clara :: da Victim of da nite

*darLing!! and.. ah yang??

Janny + Willly = JaLLy! and .. ah yang again??

Hui Lin & ZiQi

Juncong & AshLey

coupLes' shOt!! =)

coupLes' shOt 2! where's PauL's gf?

F4 wannabe? hmm..

hmm.. the fLag not straight enuff..

this LoOks better.. da C4 BBQ gang.. MZ went off le.. pOor Max & mOi outta pic.. =(

heh.. onLi mOi smiLin to the camera-man!

CLara after changing of tOp.. hee

typicaL act cute/macho/chiO hand gestures! haha!! they r so gg to kiLL mi.. oops! okie lar.. it's a nice pic taken seriously..

aniwae.. i had a gd rest this weekend.. din do any work.. went out on fri nite for a dinner at Clarke Quay, "klap baan" (in thai, means return home) on sat nite, met Jialin Darling for lunch den went Orchard w *Dear since it's been long time since we went OUT together.. followed by BBQ at nite!! whee~ i feel happy!.. thou i do feel quite guilty for not doing any work.. oops!

alrite, i shud clean up mOi room til it's *sparkling clean!* now!

-Sign Off @ 1:45 PM :)

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

finaLLy submitted mi social wrk mid term repOrt.. after everything done.. i actuaLLy feLt dat it's okie.. not so much of a heLL.. Just dat i started tOo late dOing it.. edit da repOrt til 430 am last nite cos i reaLised i did sth wrong somewhere.. argh~ *Dear waited for mOi da whole nite! and even gave mi a massage (even thou i still owe him one.. oops!) cos i feel so tired after sittin in frOnt of the laptop da entire day.. you r so sweet.. *hugs*

so.. now is time for mOi to bLog again.. relax a bit lar!! okie, talking abt the nite cycling "adventure" last friday.. it was.. erm.. FUN! yup but bimbo mOi fell down again.. somemore hit at the same place when i had a trip durin netbaLL triaL.. PAIN!! got blue black le.. *sob*
hmm but guess i'm lucky not to be knock down by vehicLes rite? chOi!! pUi!! oh i was sayin??

oh ya.. here here.. nah! some photos dat i toOk dat nite.. can u imagine mOi poOr camera died due to toO mani pics taken? weLL, i toOk 110 shots.. Just 7 hrs of cycling.. which means there's photo takin whenever there's ANY interval or breaks!! crazy~ guess i'm kana influenced by mOi Lovely dearies gaLs-> Key and Yiwen.. haha! but seriOusLy we aLL had fun takin pics w moi cam and others' cam (even the haLL officiaL photographer is afraid of us!) wherever, whenever whole nite!! love ya 2 to bits!

Off We gO! wHeE~

mOi and yiw3n

mOi & GabrieL

mOi (extra) w Grp 5

mOi grp 4 mates!! @ Laborador Park

oOps, mOi block head's injured cos of me..

yup bimbo mi feLL just 10 min after we started cycLing! in order to siam mOi so i dun get disfigured, Bing Xiong fell too.. in de end he got injured, i din.. eh.. but i got blue black wor.. den mi kind aLumni senior offers to change bicycle w mi.. so nice! oh weLL, soon all the alumni seniors know mOi name.. cos i almost fall sOoo mani times.. sorry ah.. mi bicycle skills v Lousy!

at Lau Pat Sat.. w key, fang, clara, jac, wen, me!!

w oUr OAC heads

we r happy gaLs.. =)

guyS..

wat is ALvin and wen dOing??

haLL king is turning madneSs!!

huiLin taken by Surprise by ziqi's saLivary.. erm swEet kiss

mOi Lovely neigbour Chiara =)

haLf of da jOurney cOmpLeted!

drenched? but cant stOp us from taking piCs! haa..

nice backgrOund..

i Like this one.. not the person thou..

GabrieL tryin to act coOL haha..

LoOk whaT the bicycLe has dOne to mi.. *sob*

4 babes and 1..hunk? Eee..haha!

we r stiLL young..

Lucky we r aLL Just in time to watch the ...

beautifuL sunrise..

aLL the waiting, falling, struggLing, and shivering due to the downpour are aLL worth while.. ~Nice! =)

-Sign Off @ 8:38 AM :)

Saturday, October 15, 2005

yay~ i'm goin to embark on mOi nite cycling in abt 2 hrs time!! and i haven take a nap yet!! slept for 6 hrs last nite but i guess it wiLL not be enuff definitely.. i'm quite excited cos i nv tried cyclin with such a big group esp in da middle of the nite til dawn??? a pity *Dear can't join mOi cos he got a test to study for tonite..

i am so fuLL now, i can't sleep at aLL!! i'm quite scared i mite just fall asleeep while cycling while i'm on da roads.. choi chOi CHOi!! 马路如虎口 you know.. okie gonna take lotsa photos. yay~!!

-Sign Off @ 10:30 AM :)

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Just wanna say.. Happy 2nd month, *Dear!!

but we r both very busy pple.. with loads of assignments, projects and hall activities.. we'll make

up for it and go out soon kae? Meanwhile, study hard alrite? Love you loads~ *winks*

mOi & *Dear @ SAJC Reunion Dinner

-Sign Off @ 4:57 PM :)

today... is mOi Lovely, sweet, chiO mommy's bdae!! and yes, not forgettin AmyLia, our beloved s14 class rep.. heee.. Seek's eviL twin..

called Seek last nite at almost 2 am.. lucky she's stiLL awake.. mOi and stace sang her a super loud bdae song.. i bet she must have been tramatised by our wonderfuL voices.. esp in the middle of the nite.. Eeek! hahaa.. i guess she must be out w Francis papa enjoyin hee.. abandoning Stace daddy.. haa.. (hmm r u confused by their relationship?) aniwae hope you got a great time yea? *mmuacks*

sOoo cute!! =)

KeLLy & Seek (yup, saw her at SAJC dance concert last July..)

Us on our shopping spree!! whee~

smiley Linda & sweetie Seek

v6 gal power!! but where's eLaine??

EeeK!! oops! amy's gonna kiLL mOi for this.. wahaha=P

mOi Lovely BuddieS~ hmm and where's amy??

oh yes and i miss mOi dearies buddies so so SoOo much!! been so bz recently tt i think i truely neglect them.. and this applies to Jialin, mOi 14 yrs best buddy!! soRry!! i guess everyone's busy w their life too.. new environment, be it schooL or work.. Let's meet up soon kae? i love you aLL!!

-Sign Off @ 11:15 AM :)

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

That's it. It's gonna be a very BUSY week for mOi..
since today(Mon) has gone..
*tue* Live recording and meetings
*wed* VbaLL trial and bLast!
*thu* Netball trial, Movie Screening, Dance
*fri* Nite CycLing til dawn..
*sat* open vbaLL in da morning (i bet i will die of tireness)

and i have a report due on next MOnday!! which contributes 30% to mOi final score..
i haven touch on da slightest bit.. argh~ the stress has cause me a sudden breakout of pimpLes!! irritating!!=(

and i'm gettin fairer and fairer.. gonna catch up w the sun soon sia.. next sat!! but.. i mite be workin.. and wat the heLL am i doing here? hmm..

-Sign Off @ 4:25 PM :)

Monday, October 10, 2005

i am..

lazy to go home, but i miss mOi family..
lazy to do mOi tut and assignments, but it nv seems to be an option..
lazy to clean mOi rm and have no time to do so.. okie it boiLs down to mi laziness again!

okie this is mOi rm which i took a mth back..
in case u wonder, the bouquet of roses are from mi *Dear for our 1st month-iversary..!! keke..

i love those pigLets.. they make mi happy=)

mOi *sStarrystarrYy* waLL!!

the overview..

alritey.. gotta go bathe oredi.. i'm heading home!! wonders shud i go for econs and social work lect tml or not.. hmm.. boring..

-Sign Off @ 7:10 AM :)

Sunday, October 09, 2005

the weather is so cooling,

and the rain felt so right.

the corridor is so quiet,

and i feel.. all of a sudden rather peaceful and calm..

haven been feelin this way on a sat morn for a v long time..

or rather i haven been wakin up early.. oops..!

talkin abt this issue abt wakin up, i feel v sorry instantly.. cos.. i was LATE for fridge cleanin this morn!! when i woke up, it's oredi 10am!! we r supposed to meet 830am at the comm hall for breakfast! by the time i reached the kitchenet, the fridge cleanin is almost done.. mi dear block comm fellow members had given the fridge a new lease of life.. can you imagine hOw guilty i am? seriously i am.

gosh.. i can see the tired faces and their expressions on da face due to the aftermath of cleaning up the disustin, smelly fridge.. i'm a bit relieved tt i din have to do dat, but yet i do wanna take a closer look at the disgustin fridge.. not tt i love to, but it wud be a once-in-a-lifetime exerience sia.. realli wanna say a very BIG S .O .R .R .Y to mOi block comm mates!

aniwae, just a gentle reminder and advice to all who needs a wake up call early in the mornings..
first, invest in a v huge alarm clock tt cud scare the freak outta you
second, set another alarm on ur handphone in case ur alarm clock gave up on you
third, do not set ur phone to be in the silent mode, in case pple do calls to wake you up
fourth, most IMPORTANTLY, sleep early da nite b4 if u noe u gotta wake up early!!

that's all folks, i shall go have mi er.. early lunch or rather late breakfast liaox.. a gentle reminder for myself.. that is to study today!! guess i gonna balek kampong either tonite or tml.. miss mOi family oredi.. haven been seein them since last thur..

-Sign Off @ 2:12 AM :)

Sunday, October 02, 2005

yay~ mid term is finally comin to an end soon.. erm actually i have no papers left liaox. but i still got one more report to do for mi Social Work module tt contributes 30% to the final exams! that's a Lot! i reaLLi have to do weLL for this.. *crossed mi fingers*

okie, since mi papers are sort of counted as finished oredi and today is a Sat, i think i shud deserve a break rite? heehee.. went town w *Dear to catch a movie at 1145pm cos we thot we can eat and walk ard b4 movie starts.. we had Marche for dinner and guess who we saw? Jonathan from Temasek and one of Max's mahjong khakis! and the "qiao" thing is dat both Jon and Max's fren are sec sch frenz.. they were actually w one HUGE group celebratin Max's fren's(i'm sorry i duuno the name..) belated bdae.. and Max din even know it's his bdae.. nauti nauti..!!

They are not the onli ones we saw.. we met Jinfu and his gf (Cecilia), and mOi sec sch frenz outside Cine.. den i oso saw mi sec sch class mates in Cine itself.. den we saw Bobby, Ke wei and many other Temasekians at HMV annex too.. it's a small world man.. i din even mention i saw many familiar faces while walkin ard in Cine and HMV!! okie, it's just TOWN and Sat, that's why.. heard from Jon, Jacinth and Aprilyn were in town too.. but we din see them..

aniwae, thou we merely ordered 3 dishes, it was v fuLL!! yumy yummy indeed too! after tt, we went to watch our korean Horror movie tt has claimed to be the NO 1 box office in Korea.. erm, the movie's storyline s not bad.. but i feeL dat the scary scenes are onli there just to scare you, for scaring purposes.. which i feeL shud not be like this mah..

weLL, reached back hall ard 2am.. i had a long day! soOo long nv go OUT w *Dear le.. feeL so happy now.. keke.. aniwae i tink we shud realli take more pictures hor? *wink*

-Sign Off @ 6:00 PM :)

About 5 yrs ago, a guy named DyLan and a girL named Janet met each other thru Buddhist Society, a club in NUS.. They started off as good frenz and den as time passes, their frenship bLossoms and soon they become a coupLe.. it was a rather pLeasant surprise for their frenz to see dat happenin.. so after 4 yrs of courtship, DyLan proposes to Janet one day.. it's just like the tradition scenario where DyLan knelt down w one hand holdin on to the proposed ring.. hOw sweet! so Janet agreed and they decides to held their ROM wedding on the 29th sept 05 (thu)..

Marriage is an eternal binding and the legal union of a man and woman as husband and wife. it's one of the important events in one's Life and it takes much consideration to make such a decision to be with someone legally for life. i beLieve mOi sister is v much in Love and i'm very happy for her. it's not easy to find someone whom loves you as much as you do and whom you know you can and would like to live with for the rest of your life. As there's this sayin, " Dun live w someone u can live with, but someone u cannot live w/o".. how true.. i guess it's not something dat everyone cud achieve.. i've heard too many cases where ppLe actually marries their 2nd choice, from this i meant dat pple dun always marry someone whom they love the most..

Nevertheless, i guess being married to each other, tolerating their difference in habits and lifestyle is not easy.. hence aLL shud realli cherish their partner and their relationship no matter what haapens and whom they r married to. Aniwae here's just mOi two cents worth of thots.

Back to mOi sis's ROM wedding.. heh.. bro came Temasek to fetch mi and we reached there just on time.. i almost couldn't recognise Janet.. she's v beautiful that day.. i guess aLL brides-to-be will have a kind of glow in them and they always look beautiful.. (okay, i admit there's some exception but let us just shut-up abt those kae?)

i borrowed a video cam from mi fren, thinkin i could capture everything in the video cam den burn into a cd and give to Janet as a gift or it cud serve its purpose as a memory too.. BUT.. in the end i thot recordin everything oso a bit bo liao so i onli record the "exchanged rings cermony".. 6 plus min nia.. diaao -_-"

i've been to 3 such ceremonys before, 1st is mOi da jie (Annie), 2nd is mOi fren's bro (Kian Huat aka Gary) and 3rd is Janet.. each time i go, i wud have the feeling machiam like, "i wanna get married too!" it's realli a very sweet and memorable moment when you see the couple sayin the wedding oaths, exchangin the rings and the groom will kiss the bride.. Awww... so envious.. muahaha.. dun worry, i'm not desperate to get married so soon.. haa..

after the ceremony, we proceed on to takin pictures at where else but fortcanning park? weLL, all newly wed will aLways go there.. prob it's a nice place? or prob tt's the onli place? haha.. yup so after everything we drive down to a nearby hotel called "Grand hotel Parkroyal".. it's located opposite The Peninsular. it's a freakin nice place!! and i can see that it's quite an expensive place.. the cars parked in the carpark are like woah~! i swear i saw a lot of very cooL cars but cant rem the names dat mi bro-in-law (Chin Soon) told mi.. (very bad a the car brands and names..) the car owners r all like filthy RICH! Aniwae we had buffet dinner there.. the ambience is realli quite good and the food is quite nice too.. heh.. thank you for the treat mi sis and bro-in-law! *mmuackx*

i must say the day end w a good note.. everyone is satisfied w the food and most importantly the happy event dat they witnessed earlier in the day! =) i am happy! alrite, below are some pictures to feast ur eyes.. (got a lot more, but cant possibly put all of them up!) heehee.. Gtg out w mi *Dear oredi! ciaox~