i think i am going thru an emotional torture now.. recently..
i have lost count of the number of times i have shed tears in just 2 days.. i just hope everything.. those unhappy things will stop at once.. rite away.. but sometimes it's not up to me to make the choice..
maybe it's cos i kept many things.. almost everything to myself.. which i always do.. i tend to bottle feelings inside.. sometimes it's not i wan to.. rather it is cos it is not easy to find someone willing to listen to you patiently.. someone who is able to spare their time.. someone who can understand the situation i am in and how i feel.. i dunno but i just feel that i carn always open mi heart and talk to pple or even mi close ones.. and i simply just find it difficult to confide in just anione.. hence i'll feel at a loss when those i am dependent on are not by mi side..
Stacy: thanks for being there when i need you.. i seriously appreciate that very much.. you r realli just a phone call away.. it feels realli sweet when u ask mi where am i and rush down immediately to find mi even thou it cud be a small matter.. i love yu!! stacy yu!! you are such a sweetie..
Jialin and Seek: i know both of you r very concerned about mi and will always be there for mi too.. knowing that is a great console for mi oredi.. i still love you two alot and i cherished this frenship.. thou separated by distance.. it is the heart that binds us together.. miss you two!!
things just explode eventually or come to a dead standstill when nothing is being said.. both outcomes are something i wud not wanna see..
to you, i just hope we have more heart-to-heart talks.. i promised i will share mi joys and sorrows, mi ups and downs to you from now onwards.. (i am glad we did talked last nite) and i will wan our relation to work out..
to him, i just wanna settle our things once and for all.. i DUN wanna have anything with you anymore.. you just make tink of all those unhappy past.. i dun wanna be shadowed by the past..
i just wan to be unhappy no more... that's all.