sometimes i wonder..
am i really silly or am i just living in self denial?
why do i have the thot that it seems like i am just an option for you, yet you are my priority most of the time. prolly it's due to different perceptions..
if i wanna console myself.. i wud say, "it's okay to be options.. but at least be the best/top option and not just plain alternatives/substitutes."
in fact, wat i want is to be the only option in the category, and not having to share the arena with others. so what if i am the top choice? so what? i need to believe.. and hope that you will be constantly reminded of wats and wat-nots.
i hope it is just another cold night. i dun wan this to be an excuse for me to think.