Thanks to all who has tagged mi, or msged mi or show concerns for mi personally.. you know who u are and i realli appreciate them.. i think i am feelin better now.. "tomorrow is a better day!" and i always believe in this.. hopefully this sentence holds too..
maybe sometimes i shud change mOi way of thinking and mOi mentality.. not being so hard on myself.. not expecting so much from others and i will not fall as hard.. will not be as disappointed.. In life, i guess u wun have everything to work in the way as you wud wan them to be.. and some tings will just work out themselves eventually.. i am oso starting to realise that certain things i shud keep them relax and it's time dat i actually keep other things tighter.. you gotta be strict and determined and perservere to succeed in things that you wan..
Well, i got into a normal primary school, a neighbourhood secondary school and a mediocre junior college.. now that i am in uni, i feel myself struggling in the midst of smart and hardworking peers.. and the best part is.. i am still as slack and not trying hard enuff.. putting studies aside, i still have mi sports and other activities.. i am an average vball player back in sec skooL, and a not bad dancer in jc.. you see mOi point here is, i can never be very good.. yet i will never be very bad too (choy!) *touch wood* mi results and achievement are never great.. mi studies are always mediocre, if not slightly better than average..and mi other activities are oso the most, better than the minorities.. so the conclusion? i am just an average and normal person with no special talents or extraordinary performance/achievement.. *sigh*
i dun wanna sound so pessimistic.. but i carn deny from this fact.. i guess this explains moi inferior complexity.. and the onli thing i can do is to try to be cheerful at all times and look forward to a simple life, to not complicate mi usual normal life.. and this is just mi simple little wish..
just a simple, stable, good life..