Linda
Sept 16th 1986
a dancer
a dreamer
an imperfect perfectionist
her family
her frens
sunflowers
suntanning
smiling
being random
eLeen
haZeL
jAsmiNe
jAsOn
jess
Key
Laine
Lin
Matt
Ping
Seek
Suleen
Stace
teRence
WeiQi
Wenn
Winn
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Artiste: Tanya Chua
Song Title: Beautiful Love
it's painful.. it sure is painful. it's not easy you know.. i had a hard time struggling too..
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... many silence... i wrote and backspaced a lot.. i dunno what to say.. i really dun wish to see this happening.. i feel very terrible too.. it was not a decision exactly that i can make.. or able to make.. i really cant decide.. but the truth took over.. i had no choice but to end this.. i hate to face this and i know i have been trying to avoid the reality.. not to think is impossible.. i dare not say i will not regret this outcome, this decision.. but this is not a rash impulse act.. i did think for quite sometime.. and my mind is set.. i can only tell myself that i will try not to look back... i will try.. i try...
very familiar word.. try... i guess it does gives some leeway rite?
i felt tears coming out uncontrollably as i type all this.. many memories flashes by.. and i ask myself are you sure on this? i cant bear to let go.. but at the same time i know somehow i had to.. drag mite make things worse.. is this gonna be the last time i cry for you after so many heartbreaks? maybe cos i cant find any reason to defend for you anymore.. maybe this time i am really very disappointed.. it's not just you.. it's me too.. i cant convince myself..
i can never look into your eyes like i always did..
i can never talk to you the same way i always did..
i can never rush into your room after lesson and dance pracs like i always do..
i can never go to your room to find you as and when i feel like seeing you..
i can never go to your room and kop your food and drinks like i always do..
i can never run into your arms like i always do..
i can never hug you like before..
i can never kiss you like before..
i can never pinch your cheeks like you always do to me..
i can never ask you to piggy back me whenever i want to..
i can never call you my dear..
i can never hold your hands anymore..
i can never love you the same way i did before..
i can never... i can never ever...
.. cos everything is no longer the same anymore..
i know that was the last time that i can ever hold your hand lidat.. i will try to get used to it.. i think i will.. and i have to..
and you know wat? i never knew i really love you this much. til now. but it's over.. really over.